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To Be A Swan

Welcome. A bit about me...

Another new year, 2010, another new start. I'm determined to make this year the one where I stay committed to getting healthy. Nothing is going to stop me now!

I live with recurrent major depression and anxiety, along with dissociative identity disorder, borderline personality disorder and obsessive compulsive personality disorder, all of which affect my day to day life. I'm a perfectionist with all or nothing, black and white thinking. I get ...
Welcome. A bit about me...

Another new year, 2010, another new start. I'm determined to make this year the one where I stay committed to getting healthy. Nothing is going to stop me now!

I live with recurrent major depression and anxiety, along with dissociative identity disorder, borderline personality disorder and obsessive compulsive personality disorder, all of which affect my day to day life. I'm a perfectionist with all or nothing, black and white thinking. I get overwhelmed easily, resulting in my giving up. I'm tired of living in the shadows of self hatred, doubt and unworthiness. I am slowly opening my wings to allow my inner beautiful swan to emerge with grace and dignity.

I'm not on a diet, I'm creating a permanent lifestyle change.

So, here's to becoming a swan!

June 1/09 Update: I had my hiatus hernia surgery on May 27th (laparoscopic nissen fundoplication surgery with collis gastroplasty). I came home from the hospital on May 31. For the next 8 weeks, until July 31st, I'm to eat pureed foods with the only exercise being light walking. I'm still going to work hard on getting healthy and look at this surgery as the catalyst that lit the fire under my butt!

Aug 31/09 Update: Back at it again. Weight rose to 238 lbs. I'm angry and disappointed, but also determined to get back on track. I'm on a new medication, Zyprexa, for my anxiety and it has really helped, but the side effects are constant sugar & carb cravings and slow metabolism. So, I've had to re-evaluate my goals and set my weight loss at a slower pace and focus more on getting active. I reset all my SparkPeople goals so I don't get trapped into ruminating about the past few months. Today is a new day, a new start, a new me!

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QUOTES THAT TOUCH MY SOUL

"When inward tenderness finds the secret hurt, pain itself will crack the rock and ah! let the soul emerge." ~ Rumi

"Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul." ~ Ezra Taft Benson

"Stop living life for what's around the corner and start enjoying the walk down the street." ~ Grant L. Miller
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Member Since: 5/7/2008

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My Goals:
lose 14 lbs by the end of March 2013

My Program:
brisk walking 8 km/day
low fat eating

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50 yrs old - married 30 yrs - 2 adult daughters 29 & 38 - 4 doggies - home is Vancouver Island, BC, Canada.

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crochet, knit, read, learn new information from the internet & books, computer

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APPEALSTOME
5/15/2014 5:15:28 AM

"BEAUTIFUL WOMAN AWARD"

You are the recipient of the Beautiful Woman Award!!

Once you've been given this award, you have to paste it on the page of 8 women who deserve it. If you receive more than 3, you know you're really beautiful! If you break the chain, nothing will happen, but it's always good to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out!

Again, Congratulations Beautiful! Hugs!




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BLVINBUTTERFLYS
5/26/2011 10:33:12 AM

Welcome to the Dealing with Anxiety Team! If you need support, a smile, or even a laugh, I'm here! Good Luck to you in your journey!

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AMYHAT
5/25/2011 8:58:56 PM

WOW!!! Congratulations on the weight loss!!!! I saw your post on Spark Teak "dealing with Anxiety". I totally understand how you feel. If you ever need to talk, please don't heistate to send me a message. Support is such a needed and wonderful thing to have. Congrats again!!!!



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JHARTSCOM
2/25/2011 1:06:38 AM

Hi Cathie, thanks for the add and the post. You've done an awesome job!
I'm so proud of you! YOU are an inspiration to all! Congratulations!
Judy

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