I have a wonderful son and a loving husband, and I want to enjoy our lives together.

I have shed 50 pounds & improved my mile by 8 minutes since resparking September 2011!!!!!!

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September 2011:

I have gained & lost weight my entire life. I first became overweight at age 8. Morbidly obese by my teen years. Shed weight only to regain plus more over the years. After I had my son, I ...

I have a wonderful son and a loving husband, and I want to enjoy our lives together.

I have shed 50 pounds & improved my mile by 8 minutes since resparking September 2011!!!!!!

:-) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~) :~)

September 2011:

I have gained & lost weight my entire life. I first became overweight at age 8. Morbidly obese by my teen years. Shed weight only to regain plus more over the years. After I had my son, I realized I had to make a change. My son's 2nd birthday was in August, and I want to be here for his high school graduation and beyond. I want life!

so...................
I am not going to think about weight at all. Every time I try to lose weight, I get obsessed by the scale or measurements. When I don't lose weight quickly or have a slip up, I give up on myself. This time, I'm only thinking about fitness. I'm starting the SparkPeople 5K Team and will celebrate fitness, not weight loss. Champion health not a smaller pant size. I'm ready to go!!

Update, Nov. 5, 2011:
Finished the Trick or Trot 5K in 47 minutes, 57 seconds. Way to go, me!! :~)

Current goal is 30 minutes of walking / aerobic movement 6 days a week for November Lose a Dress Size Challenge on the Goonies sparkteam. :-) Feeling great & ready to go!!!!
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Update, Jan. 13, 2012:

Finished the Goonies challenge that lasted thru December. yay!

Current goal is 5K under 45 minutes on April 1st with my dad, sister, & brother in law. Vroom, vroom!!

I have also started to weigh myself once a month as part of the MOTIVATE challenge on the Done Being a Fat Girl Team. The weigh ins have been manageable emotionally for me, and I don't find myself obsessing, so I feel okay about it, overall.
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Update, March 6, 2012:

A week or two after the above update, I felt the onset of depressive symptoms. I am starting to emerge on the otherside of the blue wave, and look forward to spring, as the flowers bloom and my mood continues to improve.

I managed to get 500 fitness minutes through the thick of the depression. I refocused last week on the April 1st 5K. I'm ready to go, go, go!!! I also did water zumba for the first time yesterday. The social aspect was very uplifting for me, and the class itself was fun yet good cardio, too.

In the land of nutrition, I circled back to sparktracker. The 10 minutes I take to enter my food has helped me the past 2 weeks. I am better able to be accountable for the food I eat. I wish there was an emotion tracker to use on the food page for emotional eating. That would be neat!

And lastly, to the scale. I circled back around to no weigh ins. The challenges that were scale dependent ended up stressing me out more than motivating me. The Wookie has hidden the scale, and for that, I am thankful. It's nice to think about how much fun my workout was rather than how many calories I burned.
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Update, June 2, 2012:
I have been consistent & steady with my exercise since emerging from depression. I had a few off weeks but bounce back to exercise quickly. It makes me FEEL so much better; I consider it therapy & personal preservation. I want to be around in 30 years to see possible grandchildren. I want to celebrate my 50th wedding anniversary!

I finished the April 1st 5K under my goal time of 45 minutes. I clocked in at 44 minutes, 51 seconds. woo hooooo!!!!!! The energy of this race was amazing. It was a wonderfully invigorating experience.

I did a very informal 5K on May 19th and made it to the 44 minute boundary. WOOOO HOOOOO!!!!! It was a charity race that focused more on the "Fun Walk" with moms & strollers. I was one of maybe 10 racers, and I was the only obese person. I was the last finisher, but I managed to keep a few people in sight through the race. I made my goal time of 44 minutes and represented for fat girls everywhere, lol!

I started to meditate about a month ago, and I've noticed I'm better able to simply be with my feelings instead of eating to smother them. My mantra while meditating is: "I want to be free from binging. I am worth it."

I remind myself that each day & each meal offers opportunity to choose the healthy option. A misstep at breakfast can't ruin my day unless I allow it. Persistence, not perfection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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February 27, 2013 update:

I have very slowly shedding weight since last September. I have had a lot of trouble accepting my weight shedding success which causes guilty feelings and binges. I have also been persistent, commited to exercise and somewhat consistent with staying in calorie range. I have shed 10 pounds or so since my 1 year resparkversary in September.

I also volunteering to colead the fun Four Seasons Challenge sparkteam. The move to spark leadership caused a bit of stress, but now I have become accustomed to the role and enjoy it a lot. Near daily posting on sparkteams helps me stay on the sparktrail. My wonderful sparkfriends give me love, understanding and kudos for a job well done. I am so grateful for sparkpeople and my sparkfriends.

Yes, the weight shedding has slowed a bit, but I'm very optimistic for my future. I know it may take years to shed the 100+ extra pounds on my frame. And that is ok. I am worth the effort.

I am worth life.
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