Hey, I've been on spark, so many times. and I KNOW it works. but for whatever reason, I keep letting things, mostly myself, get in the way.
It's time. I am officially at the HIGHEST weight I've ever been, and about 40 pounds HEAVIER from when I started fading from sp last time. It's time to kick my butt into gear.
I want a family some day. I can't do it when I'm this emotionally and physically unhealthy.
in the last 12 months, My Aunt Becky died, she was sick for a long time, not taking care of herself. My cousin, her son, he is gone too, and he also lived in an unhealthy life but in a different way. and my little cousin, sweet angel that she was (not related to the aforementioned) no one thought would live past 3 died during a seizsure at age 13. those were in the span of FIVE WEEKS.
Last December, My uncle, who lost his wife and son last year, began to have kidney failure. (did I mention my mom uncle and grandpa all have diabetes!), and then into this year had 9 strokes, went blind in his eye. Yes 9 strokes! He gets dialysis 3 times a week and between my mama and I, we care for him. It's mostly my mama but I help.
Needless to say.... stressville, emotional city, and finally..... too much weight gain town. I need to get healthy :( or else I'll end up like the others in my family who are falling apart, and it kills me to watch them suffer :(.
I gave up drugs almost 3 years ago, actually.... on May 3 was exactly 3 years ago. and have since then put on over 80 pounds! I'm glad I quit the drugs, but, I need to find a blance!
Time to get healthy. One day at a time. I can't control a decade from now, a year from now, a month from now, a week, even a day. I can control NOW. My goal is to control the now :)
working out 3-5 times a week. Drinks lots of water. Enjoy life! eat healthier.
I am well travelled, I've lived all over. Louisiana, New Mexico, Arizona, Cali, Colorado, Indiana, and travelled lots of fun places. over the last several years with my weight gain, I am not able to have the fun I used to. so here's to the now!
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