kitty...all slicked out last summer
kitty and i, out enjoying the day!
my 20 year old quarter horse gelding...jake.
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hey y'all! just to give everyone an idea about who i am, and what my journey with my weight has been like, i wanted to give a little history on me.
i was skinny as a little girl. my weight started to go up early middle school. before it got out of control, my entire family jumped on the "atkins diet" bandwagon and watched carbs for nearly a year. it got to be a way of life. no carb, no sugars, LOTS AND LOTS OF MEAT! we'd eat anything that didn't have a lot of carbs. lots of bacon and eggs and cheese for breakfast...it wasn't healthy. the weight came off, and i got down to 155 by the time i was a 7th grader. after we ended the atkins phase, naturally the weight came back...and then some. by the end of my 8th grade year, i weighed 225 pounds!!
highschool my weight fluctuated depending on the year. i was never skinny, but i wasn't really obviously obese either. i'm 6'0" tall, so i tend to weigh MUCH MORE than people would guess i do. i was also one of those rare women that looked in the mirror, and the reflection i saw was skinnier than who i truly was. i learned how to take pictures from my "best angle" and how to hold my head so my double chin didn't show. i became good at trying to make who i appeared to others match who i thought i saw in the mirror.
after highschool i went to college and did the "typical" college thing. drinking, eating whatever i wanted, little to no sleep...it all caught up with me. my weight continued to fluctuate between fad diets and binging. i was certainly on a downward spiral, but i had such low-self esteem i didn't think i could really do any better for myself, so i remained frozen where i was at.
nearly 3 years ago i came back to my faith in god and gave my entire life back to him. i haven't drank in over 3 years, i quit smoking 3 years ago, and even gave over my dating life to god. i know i make TERRIBLE choices when it comes to guys, and giving up my own will in that area only seemed natural. lately i feel like i'm figuring out why my weight has crept back up to my heaviest weight in june 2007.
i wanted badly to be a different person. i no longer appreciated the attention and remarks from random men like i had in the past. i used to strive to be noticed, and really drew my self-esteem from how much attention i could get from a man. since allowing god to change me, i no longer welcome that attention...infact, it really frustrates me.
recently i pinpointed my weight gain to the end of my last relationship, 2 years ago. prior to that i had lost nearly 30 lbs. and was in better shape than i had been in a long time. after the break-up i was confused. i wanted things to be different, and i believe i let my weight go in an effor to make myself less appealing to men. the more i weighed, the less attention i got, which left me fewer opportunities to make a bad judgement call and get into another bad relationship.
in june 2007 i went to the doctor for a regular check-up. when he weighed me, i weighed 250 pounds. i wanted to die! i had NEVER seen a number that high. i came home and checked my BMI with an online calculator and my BMI was 33.9....well into the obese range. not overweight....not just a little extra.....i was OBESE.
heart disease, high blood pressure, diabetes, strokes, poor circulation, and many other things run in my family. i know that at this point in my life i have the most time i'll ever have to dedicate to losing this weight. i am single, i don't have any kids, and i can focus 100% on myself and losing this weight.
for me, this is a lifestyle change that will stay with me for the rest of my life. it's been a slow process...my willpower fails me sometimes, but i have to keep moving forward...b/c with GOD, all things are possible!!!
my prayer is that during this journey, when someone asks me how i succeeded in my weight loss, i give god all the glory...truly, without him and the strength he gives me each day, i would weigh 250 pounds....probably more.....at this point in my life!!
if you want to know anything else, i'm excited to meet new people and get a support network going...i know that motivates me to keep going! look forward to hearing from y'all!!
i try to set mini-goals to keep myself motivated
i try to limit my fat intake, and opt for whole grains rather than processed flour. i drink at least 3 liters of water a day, and use cardio and strength training to burn more calories than i take in.
just the basics for me! it's a LIFESTYLE CHANGE...not a diet! :)
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2836 days ago
Hi, I'm just dropping by to see how you are doing? What day are you on? How are things going?
2845 days ago
Hello and welcome to SCF The Lord's Table. I also can't wait to get to know you better. Have a great night. Karol
2852 days ago
Welcome to SCF - The Lord's Table! I look forward to chatting with you on the forums and getting to know you better as we encourage one another in this journey.
Congratulations on your weight loss so far! You're doing so great!
2853 days ago
Hey Lins....Will you spread the word to the Posse that I am well and will be on a plane tomorrow evening winging my way to CHICAGO!!!!!
I have been BEYOND busy and am taking today to get packed.
They are waiting for us at the Radisson. Got an even better discount on our rooms. It will be a great place for us to stay.
SO.....that is the scoop from here.
Please let Sarah know that I am so sad that see will not be there BUT I am proud of her for putting her family first.
2868 days ago