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March 2013
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I'm a struggling mix of real and perfect-- though, at the moment I am working on the ratio.
i'm nothing special.-- i'm a combination of everybody i have ever known.--just so glamorous, in that heart-broken, shattered spirit, dead-on-the-inside kind of way.--i eat poems for breakfast and put my hands over my face and listen to what they tell me.
i wish i could just sit on the beach and drink wine all day; but i don't have that much wine.--these days i care too much and eat too little.
i drink coffee like water. i never know what to say.--i still don't know how i get ...
i'm nothing special.-- i'm a combination of everybody i have ever known.--just so glamorous, in that heart-broken, shattered spirit, dead-on-the-inside kind of way.--i eat poems for breakfast and put my hands over my face and listen to what they tell me.
i wish i could just sit on the beach and drink wine all day; but i don't have that much wine.--these days i care too much and eat too little.
i drink coffee like water. i never know what to say.--i still don't know how i get out of bed half the time.--it's not pretty, or endearing. I just may be the strangest person you will ever know. I am filled with too many oddities and too few consistencies and I will always lack the spongey filter that should live between brain and mouth. These defining traits, these enduring characteristics, and these fingers crossed that in all of it, you will find them irresistible
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Member Since: 6/24/2008
SparkPoints: 5,793
Fitness Minutes: 6,838
My Goals:
See a ballet.
Take a knitting/crochet class.
See a movie alone.
Ride in a hot air balloon.
Eat croissants in Paris
Take a class in a foreign language
Run a 5k ( started c25K 10/1/12)
Renew my passport
Go apple picking in an orchard
Make an apple pie from scratch
Get my palms read.
Have a psychic or tarot card reading
Grow my own herbs.
Eat pizza in NYC with my best friend
Go to NYC
See a musical on Broadway.
Walk on the Atlantic City boardwalk.
Go to Chinatown in San Francisco
Tour the White House.
Visit Alaska.
Get on a kiss cam with someone actually worth kissing.
Read in a French café while having beignets and coffee.
Eat pizza in Venice (again) and be old enough to actually appreciate it.
Have three months’ income in a savings account.
Go to Pike Place Market in Seattle– for coffee
Get a degree in something I find interesting.
Hike the Grand Canyon
Re-read the complete works
My Program:
I’ve been working for a few years now to get down to a goal weight of 185. I’e been close a few times but it’s always just dancing out of reach. I’m not giving up though. I was thinking about just deleting all of the past weight loss/ exercise entries on this blog, but I won’t. When I do look at them, I feel so discouraged. I lost a quick 20 lbs right after my divorce and felt amazing. When I went out out and had fun with friends, I had so much confidence and felt like I could wear what I wanted and finally get the attention that I had been craving. That was really the first time in my life I had ever had that much confidence and the first time in my life that I felt like I could lose the rest of my weight. It was such a great feeling…Then all hell broke loose…I don’t even know what happened, but I surely gained the weight back. (And then some.) I’m at the point where I hate myself for it. I can’t stand how much weight I gained and really don’t feel like I am worth anything righ
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"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think that I have ended up where I intended to be." - Douglas Adams
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