I understand your situation and very sorry to hear that. Here is some advise for you:
1.Eating fatty food and Carb together will make the blood stream stuck with fat, u may slim but may get heart disease.
2. Try out nuskin product TR90, pm me try it
Thanks for posting on my blog my friend. Yes, we are too hard on ourselves at times. I read a good article called Five Mistakes we learn from. One of the ladies from sparks wrote it. She said to Not Force the weight loss to happened. It won't work and it will just make things worse. She also said to enjoy the now. Send time with family friends etc. Will try to find it again and post it another blog when I have the time. Hope you have a good day and a great week!