SAGE150   39,002
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208 lbs, La diva de la pista de baile, febrero 2012

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This Time the Real Me Is Here to Stay

August 2014 Update:
I am watching my portions, cooking at home, and trying to eat as many whole foods as possible. I am doing a mix of cardio and strength training about 4-5 days a week. I lost most of the weight before and rebounded just to gain it all back. I have learned a lot about myself, and I am a much different person mentally and emotionally this time around. With all that I have learned along the way, I am positive that this time I can lose it all and keep it off.
August 2014 Update:
I am watching my portions, cooking at home, and trying to eat as many whole foods as possible. I am doing a mix of cardio and strength training about 4-5 days a week. I lost most of the weight before and rebounded just to gain it all back. I have learned a lot about myself, and I am a much different person mentally and emotionally this time around. With all that I have learned along the way, I am positive that this time I can lose it all and keep it off.

Emergency Emotional Eating Prevention List:
Examine Logic - If you would eat healthy foods instead of your craving, you are hungry. If you only want to eat your craving, it is a craving. Distract yourself and resist it.
Throw Out Trigger Foods If You Can't Control Yourself
Go For a Walk and Talk Problems Out With God/Pray
Fill Up on Water
Sip Hot Tea
Pet a Cat or Two
Read a Book
Masturbate (Please do not be offended at my very valid personal list.)
Distract Myself Constructively
Lay on Bed Listening to Music in the Dark
Watch a Good Movie. Food Not Included.
Go to Sleep

Binge Help:
�Avoid that first compulsive bite.� "[The bite that is compulsive is the one you know will send you into a binge frenzy. Prevent the first compulsive bite and you prevent the binge.

Be careful with your emotional triggers that lead to you reaching for food as a comforting tool and HALT before that first compulsive bite. H.A.L.T. = Hunger. Anger. Loneliness. Tired. Just some of the many feelings that lead us to reach for food. Before you even reach for the food, ask yourself what you are feeling and distract yourself while you figure it out mentally. Once you know why you want to eat and what the root cause is, do something about it or decide to not. Make it your choice, your decision; put things in your hands again. You are now in control.]"

Mindless Eating Prevention List:
No eating when not hungry
No eating while watching t.v. or movies
No eating while doing anything than distracts focus away from eating
No eating while simply bored
No eating as something to do
No eating as a way to put off something you don't want to do
No eating after cruising the kitchen absent-mindedly; walk on
July 2013 Update:

I have been bedridden off and on for a good portion of this last year, overcome by crippling pain, unable to walk. The pain keeps migrating, the diagnoses changing to accomodate. I have gained all but 3 lbs of my weight back. I got on the scale today (7/3/13) and took all my measurements again. I'm starting over. I was in physical therapy, and it did help. This time I will be able to deal with my emotional and mindless eating. This time I am ready to succeed.
Feb 2012 Update:

Ummmmm..... Soooooo.... Yeah. What happened to me? Well, I could analyze the bejesus out of it, but I think to sum it up, I would have to say I got side-tracked and paralyzed by stress , depression, and anxiety for a year and a half, and I turned to my poor, long-time coping mechanism of emotional eating to handle it all. I went through periods where I would exercise like crazy, but I never could quite get a handle on my eating long-term. I think that is why I have put back on half of the weight that I originally lost. I am not to the point of being successful at keeping it off, but I would still like to work on taking off the weight WHILE working on healing myself and changing my bad habits and coping mechanisms so that this time, every pound I take off will hopefully stay off. For good. For a permanently, healthier me.
Feb 2011 Update:

I'm around 180 lbs now and ready to incorporate more strength training, toning, and intense cardio into my daily routines. I am ready to up it a few notches and get this thing done. I am still dealing with some issues of emotional eating which have hampered my progress, but I am confident that I AM making progress, having maintained 180 lbs for over 6 months already.

30 lbs more to go. I can do this! �S�, YO PUEDO! Let's get it done!
March 2010: The Year I Joined Spark

My life is a good life. I have my challenges, my obstacles, my triumphs, my joys, and my dreams. I have good self-esteem and have survived a variety of difficulties in the path of life. I would like to recover some or all of what I have lost along the way in the process of living in survival mode for a period of time. When a person is just trying to make it from one day to the next, it is easy to lose perspective of the importance of the actual quality of our lives. Two of the things vital to the quality of my life are my health and my spirit--two things that are incredibly intertwined in the mind/body continuum. My goals go much further than simply a number on the scale. They go further than simply very good nutrition and an acceptable amount of necessary and rejuvenating exercise. My goals go beyond reducing risk factors for obesity-related diseases. I have my spirit pointed hopefully towards the future, in acknowledgment of today, and with respect for the past but without continued entanglement in it.

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Member Since: 3/1/2010

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My Goals:
-learn to truly manage the urges to emotionally and mindlessly eat
-really strengthen my foot and get in such incredible shape so that not only can I dance, but I can follow any lead elegantly my partner may throw at me
-learn how to swim several different strokes really well
-go from being morbidly obese to obese then to being just overweight then to residing within a healthy body weight range
-be able to walk 4 mph for at least an hour
-cinch my waist and boost my booty sexy (get my curves back)
-weigh 150 lbs, my normal weight, and being optimally fit
-participate in RAGBRAI

My Program:
I am rehabilitating my right foot from a procedure done to treat three Morton's neuromas in it. Hopefully as I recover, I will be able to increase the amount and variety of exercises I am able to do.

Right now I am walking almost everyday, especially to reach my total minutes exercised if my other cardio exercises for the day fall short. I am also biking, doing water aerobics, swimming, strength training, and dancing (just a little bit).

Personal Information:
I live in Iowa, and I prefer to be known only by my pseudonym, Sage.

Other Information:
When I Meet My Final Goal: it's just too delicious to decide on yet. ;D

My Reward for Losing Weight During My Weightloss Journey: I have taken to opening vacuum-packed bags of clothes which I had put in storage until I could hopefully one day wear them again. Every 20 lbs or so, I get out the next bag and start to go through both it and my closet. Anything that is obviously too big or is the right size but doesn't look good on me gets chucked. It's incredibly cathartic!

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6/17/2015 12:43:35 PM

“Courage is not the absence of despair; it is, rather the capacity to move ahead in spite of despair.”
—Rollo May

Some days we wake up to overwhelming feelings that things look bleak. We see loss and danger around us, and we fear for the future. That is when our character is most tested. That is when we are called to continue to just put one foot in front of the other. There is no need to solve all our problems right away or to change the world immediately. Courage isn’t necessarily a feeling of confidence that we can triumph over all odds. It’s knowing that we can move ahead one step at a time, and it’s taking positive action in the face of our fears.
Each day we can do small things that are constructive. By these small things, we can place ourselves on the positive side of life’s equation. We can put our weight where we want to go. That is courage.
Today, in the face of my despair, I will focus my efforts on the side of my hopes and values

I just wanted to share my morning devotions with you today

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6/7/2015 10:35:40 AM

When you make a change, you make a difference.

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emoticon Goals give you the ability to be self-directed and in control.

emoticon You have the power to change, and no one can take that

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challenges or succumb to them.

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power to change.

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5/23/2015 9:00:59 AM

Sometimes the healthiest thing I can do for myself is to admit that I am not perfect. I am human. I make mistakes. Today I will have the courage to look the truth in the face, admit my errors and achievements, appreciate my growth. and make amends where I have done harm. I will not attempt to manage or control what is beyond my powers. I will dedicate myself to managing my own life, and only mine.

There is only one corner of the world you can be sure of improving.and that is your own self.

As I look at my fitness, nutrition and personal goals, I seek progress not perfection. I admit I am not perfect, but I am making positive changes and I rejoice in my growth as I seek to eliminate my character defects. Strength comes from facing adversity and not giving in, not surrendering, not giving up.

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5/9/2015 11:06:07 AM

I led an AA meeting this week.. The topic was Step Five. I just want to share again this powerful prayer hoping it blesses and inspires you as it does me.
Higher Power, thank You for helping me complete my housecleaning. I can now look the world in the eye. I can be alone at perfect peace and ease. My fears have fallen from me. I have begun to feel your nearness. I have begun to have a spiritual experience. I feel I am on the Broad Highway, walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.

In working Step Five I experienced a spiritual moment when I realized that if I keep people at a distance....not sharing my personal inventory of defects of character with another person... I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can experience Him by loving people and allowing people to love me.

I am so grateful to sober today and continuously working the Twelve Steps in all areas of my life I am so happy to have you as a SparkFriend. Your lvoe and support is truly appreciated emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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4/27/2015 12:11:24 AM

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We must look inside ourselves to free ourselves. The issue of all growth is to make a change for the better and then to have an unrelenting willingness to shoulder the responsibility this entails (The Big Book,p.115).

Each day is an opportunity for personal growth. Self-esteem grows as we do in recovery. Without dreams and goals, there is nothing keep use moving forward. Out Higher Power accompanies us in our own personal journey each step of the way.

I am empowered to succeed because I realize there is power in powerlessness.

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