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UPDATED: August 17, 2010

So here I am, seven months into this journey. I fell off the wagon a few months into it and know that I had put too many expectations onto myself. Perfectionism, I have decided, is a safety blanket - a quilt of excuses woven in with self doubt. That blanket was shredded up long ago and is used to polish my running shoes.

This year I discovered that I am a runner. I have always been a runner, but I never did run. Because my huge boobs hurt to run behind. Because my belly jiggled, and I didn't want to get laughed at. I would wake up in the morning and want to go run but was afraid to. What was I afraid of? My feet wanted to take off, but my heart and mind weren't ready.

Know what? I don't care anymore. Anyone that might have a problem looking at my ass jiggle while I run, better just speed up on that trail and pass me by. I'm out there running for ME. I am huffing and puffing, leaving my stress and old, low expectations in the dust.

Not only does it feel good to run, it's cleansing mentally. I have 3 kids and a constant "noise" about me. That's life I suppose, but this is my way to turn it off for a while and go inside.

Though I prefer to run alone, I completed my first 5k 8/14/10 and can see becoming totally addicted to those as well. Cool t-shirts (in my new smaller size) and donating to a good cause? Count me in :-)

The healthier eating thing has actually been fun too. A year ago (heck, six months ago) I wouldn't have said that. I knew that a change was on the horizon but wasn't ready. Not sure what I was waiting for.. but I can't believe how GOOD healthy tastes. How amazing fat-free shrimp creole and elk steaks and all the veggies I can carry home from the farmers' market taste.

I've never felt better. I haven't had a migraine in weeks. And I must say, I'm sure happy to be cleaning my fat clothes out of my closet.

For posterity, I've left my starting "Intro Text" completely in tact below. Originally, my thoughts were a little bit more self critical. As I have traveled this journey toward a healthier life, I have realized that being mean to myself and thinking negative thoughts were just not cutting it. Looking back, I get why I thought that way because I didn't perceive that I had much to be proud of myself for. The little successes along the way have been much celebrated and embraced, changing my outlook from (OMG I need to lose how much?!?!) to (Holy crap, I haven't fit into these pants since 2003)

My girls need a positive role model. Soon the preteen years will hit, and they need a strong foundation & a good example of how to eat and stay active. Daddy can stay thin alone with his metabolism and never lift a finger. Mommy obviously can't , LoL. They all need to know that even if they are naturally thin, it's important to take good care of themselves. Good habits are contagious and it's my calling to turn my family (and myself) around.

I am sick of being embarrassed to see people I haven't seen in years because I've gained weight.

I miss feeling self confident.

I deserve to have more energy.

I deserve to not have horrible reflux because of all the extra weight around my middle.

I deserve to not have to buy clothes with an X or W after the size.

I can't think of a reason NOT to turn my habits around. No better time than now. Let's do this!

Member Since: 1/13/2010

Fitness Minutes: 2,649

My Goals:
- I want to fit into the dress I wore when I first met my husband. It's a size 10.

I also want to:
- not feel embarrassed and self conscious with others (working in the wedding industry, I'm around a lot of beautiful people!)

- to let this "I'd really rather be a hermit and never do anything fun for myself" feeling go. I deserve better!

My Program:
I've found a love for movement and sensory input ASIDE from food. I enjoy running/walking outside. A few weeks ago the C25K program "found" me and I've been loving it!!

My program is to MOVE every day. I crave working out so I think this will be the easy part. Knock on wood.

I'm making conscious decisions about food and activity choices.

Personal Information:
My name is Erica and I'm from Kansas City. I'm self employed and photograph portraits and weddings.

I am married to a wonderful guy and we'll celebrate our ten year anniversary this year! We have 3 beautiful children - two girls and a boy.

Other Information:
I am sarcastic and find humor in everyday life. I love scary movies, photography, baking, and being domestic.

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