Thank you so much for your comment on my blog. I have struggled so much with the "what should I do?" and "what if I?" for Miss Mollie. I feel so many emotions...guilt, frustration, anger, fear, sadness, hopelessness...I don't know what I am doing about it from one second to the next.
I have started to try to put things into perspective. I do not have the money for more surgery. I drained myself with the last go round. So even if I thought it was the right thing to do right now, I can't. I feel as though it may be selfish to keep putting her through things. Right now, Mollie is happy. She is her normal self. She is eating well, playing, loving, and enjoying her life. I should just let her do that. IF/WHEN it comes back I guess I will have to see what the prognosis is. The second that she is suffering is when it is time to give her peace. She deserves it, because I love her. She has given my family so much love and joy. I owe her peace when it is time.
It will break me to put her down. It will put me in a pit of sorrow and guilt and anger for a long time. But it isn't about me, is it?
I appreciate your perspective very much. Sometimes what we want isn't always the right answer. Sometimes it is the hard choice that is the right one. Thank you for sharing with me. It means so much!
Thanks for the comment on my photo. Yes, I am slowly trimming down. It is taking me a little longer than planned, but I truly am having a lot of fun doing so and getting the opportunity to get to know some wonderful people, present sparker included, from all over the country.
Thanks for stopping by my blog. It was the most stressful 10 minutes to get back to my car. I am so glad that I remembered to go through a mental check so early in my run. When I was finishing up my run, there were more cars pulling into the school. In a couple of weeks the kids are going to take the FCATS (Florida Comprehensive Academic Tests) so kids were coming for practice tests. In the future I will run with my hand held water bottle on my long runs because there is a pocket on the casing even if I do not plan on taking one sip. Whew.
Thanks for stopping by my blog. I was a little achy after the race. I probably did not stretch enough after. My quads were screaming so I took it easy on the strength training.
Funny how I look back and think when I was a little girl that 40 was SO old. Now I look in the mirror and see a 30 year old....and it is all thanks to Spark. Losing the weight (I still have a little bit more to go) and getting out there and being active again makes me feel so young.
Thanks for stopping by my half marathon blog. It still has not fully sunk in that I am a half marathoner yet. I did it!!!!! Of course I look back and wish I would have done a few things different. Going forward, I am going to bring my hand held water bottle that I use on my long runs. There were times when I needed water and I was in between water stations.
I took in the scenery and just ran. It did not bother me that I did not have music. Yes, it felt great to hear the cheers from the folks lining the streets.