It was the 2oth anniversary of my Father's passing in March (I was 18 when he died). I feel what you are going through. Try to do something today to honor his memory. Cry. Laugh. Let your emotions flow. You are loved. Hugs, Jenn
Just wanted you to know you are not alone. My Dad died January 1st. It doesn't get "better" it just gets different. Nothing can fix it, you just learn to live with it and look forward to seeing him again in heaven. God bless you and anytime you need to chat with a kindred spirit, drop me a line.