Nothing is impossible...that's dad's watch in the background he was 8 days old! Born 17 wks early
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Been there, done that and back for more but differently
January 2007 - 214 pounds, morbidly obese. I almost fell off my chair that day. I fought and struggled with my weight and life. I lost 75 pounds here getting down to 139 pounds. What I didn't do was deal with my issues. The grief over losing my son six hours after being born. What I didn't do was deal with the guilt of feeling as though my decision during my pregnancy to save both of my babies (my son who died had a birth defect, we were offered "selective reduction" which we wouldn't do) ...
January 2007 - 214 pounds, morbidly obese. I almost fell off my chair that day. I fought and struggled with my weight and life. I lost 75 pounds here getting down to 139 pounds. What I didn't do was deal with my issues. The grief over losing my son six hours after being born. What I didn't do was deal with the guilt of feeling as though my decision during my pregnancy to save both of my babies (my son who died had a birth defect, we were offered "selective reduction" which we wouldn't do) caused my surviving son to be delayed and have behavioral issues. What I didn't do was take time for me during all this, time to grieve, time to heal, time to move forward with the life that was my reality.
I've been gone from spark for quite a few years and in the time that i've been away, I've regained 42 of those 75 pounds lost, but I have also dealt with my issues and finally am at peace with what had happened. Just as importantly I did keep 33 of those 75 pounds off and retained the health benefits (saw a new doc who requested blood work as part of my new patient physical, sugar levels good, cholesterol levels good, blood pressure good) in his own words "we should all have numbers like that".
Life has once again thrown me many challenges, some more than others have had to deal with, some less but on some level just the same as anyone else as you should never ever judge unless you walk in someone else's shoes.
I am no longer able to do my favorite cardio workouts (walking, hiking, biking) my chronic lower back pain was finally diagnosed as a degenerative spinal condition which is slowly but surely causing me to lose the feeling in my left leg. Even cleaning my house is a challenge as I can't stand for any length of time. We lost our health insurance in 2009 (my husbands company decided they would no longer offer group health insurance) just after being diagnosed with my degenerative spinal condition. I'm facing over $10,000.00 worth of medical bills from 2011 and 2012 has brought a diagnosis of Autism and ADHD for our son.
Life seems to be challenging me at every turn, yet somehow, someway I get up every morning and go on. I do because I must. My child may be dependent on me for the rest of his life, only time will tell so I need to prepare for that. But most importantly I need to do this for me, for once in the last 8 years (perhaps even an entire lifetime) I need to be kind to myself, I need to take care of myself and I need to love myself. I will face life's challenges and succeed, I will reach my goals and I will be one of the 5% who are able to maintain their weight loss.
So, that's me in the nutshell, not perfect, just human, trying my best and placing one foot in front of the other in my personal 1000 mile journey.
Exerpt from Spark Peoples Healthy Reflection:
"Sails are made with cloth for a reason. When they're stiff, winds beat against them until they tear. But if the sails are relaxed and workable, the wind can take you to places you've never been before".
| Pounds lost: 64.6
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Member Since: 2/5/2007
Fitness Minutes: 19,595
214 pounds 1/1/07 All time highest non-pregnancy weight. Refused to wear clothes with sizes :(
181 pounds 7-15-2012 returned to Spark after several years away and off my program. Size 16
171 pounds 8-15-12 Size 14
164.4 pounds 9-15-12 Size 12
160.4 pounds 10-15-12 size 10-12 Not bad for having a bad sprain 3 of the 4 weeks :)
157.4 pounds 11-15-12 size 10. Beginning to think the sprain may be something more serious
143 pounds 12-18-2013
Long Term Goals. Maintain a healthy lifestyle at a weight of 120-130 which allows for 5 pounds under and 5 pounds over my goal weight of 125, exactly the middle point for a healthy BMI
Portion control and exercise
Removed over-processed starches..white bread, white pasta, white rice etc., eating whole wheat or whole grains.
Removed prepackaged/processed convienence foods when possible
Eating natural foods which includes fruits and vegetables, healthy fats, dairy and lean meats/proteins.
Removed artificial sweetners when possible
Taming the sweet tooth
Daily Nutrition Goals
3 f/v daily
Exercise 20 min 4x week.
Stay within calorie range 5x week.
I'm 49, live in Riverside, CA and am married. I'm a stay at home mom of a 9 year old son, who was diagnosed with Autism and ADHD at the age of 8. Purple is his favorite color, therefore I proudly display purple as a reminder that anything is possible. My son is my hero, he's a fighter and if I can face my personal challenges half as well as he has faced his I can do anything I set my mind to.
Hobbies: Scuba diving, snorkeling, hiking, flower gardening, fishing, boating, creative outlets: photography, crafts, graphic design and web design.
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