Thanksgiving Day: November 27, 2008
September 7, 2008
Graduation Day! This picture caused me re-evaluate my life. May 2, 2008
Hello I'm Connie (AKA CJ). It has taken me years to understand and embrace the fabulous, fierce, fun loving woman that lives in my temple. I have grown to love her over the years. However, there is a conflict between the internal and the external. The reality is—being overweight no longer serves who I have become. The antiquated clothes, the need for acceptance, hiding from the world in a fat suit is inappropriated for the woman that is emerging. The fact is, I have conquerred the fear that once held me powerless to the true beauty that lives inside of me. It is now time for my body to follow.
I no longer desire, but deserve to live and walk in the fullness of life. I deserve to live free from the imprisonment and the emotional baggage that comes with the excessive weight. I have lost too much time to shame, and feelings of tiredness, inadequacies and even embarrassment that sometimes emerge and follows me like a shadow. I love my life. Now I want to love the body that is reflected in the mirror.
I am DONE being the woman that only has the pretty face.
I am DONE shopping at the same stores.
I am DONE with the fat jokes, the discrimination, and the looks of disappointment.
I am DONE trying to convince others that I am not my size.
I am DONE missing parties and other events due to my weight.
I am DONE being unhealthy.
I am DONE making excuses for my weight.
I am DONE hiding from old friends because I’m embarrassed of the weight.
I am DONE wearing oversize clothes to cover-up my imperfection.
I am DONE wearing sweaters when it is hot, to cover my fat arms.
I am DONE fearing that seats will not accommodate me.
I am DONE not celebrating and living my life in the fullest of joy.
I AM DONE BEING A FAT GIRL!
It is time to let the fat girl go……
My current goal is to become the healthest person I can become. This includes and is not limited to simply weight loss. But, It is becoming physically, mentally, and spiritually attune. I would like to lose 175 pounds, but my ultimate goal is to live my life with purpose and joy.
I really don't have a specific program that I am following. I eat in moderation and try to be sensible with three meals a day and two or three small snacks. I literally work my butt off in the gym.
I work out six to seven days a week. Everyday I engage in at least an hour or more of cardio, and three to four hours of weight training per week. I'm still learning about nutrition and exercising.
I'm from Southern California. My friends call me CJ. The love of my life is my husband and I have a beautiful family that is supportive of most of the things I decide to do in my life.
I love inspirational readings and quotes. This is currently one of my favorite quotes:
“Health is a state of complete harmony of the body, mind and spirit. When one is free from physical disabilities and mental distractions, the gates of the soul open.” ~B.K.S. Iyengar ~
If you want to get healthy & fit, you have to want it bad! You have to want it more than the next guy wants it & you have to work hard, but you can do it! ~Angela~
"The greatest tragedy in life is to miss the purpose and potential of your existence."
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| Pounds lost: 66.0