My Before.. 243lbs January 2014
Now! 55lbs gone in January 2015
I've been a member of SP for 8 years. I joined when I was a unhappy married mother of 1 toddler girl, and weighed close to 230. At the time it was my highest weight and I couldn't stand it. I ended up loosing about 20lbs before getting pregnant with my son. after him, I lost a ton of weight with breastfeeding, but of course, didn't keep it off.
I'd go back and forth on SP, Had another baby, At one point joined a Gym, but while I loved going to the gym, I ate crap and didn't really loose.. so I quit going assuming I wasn't loosing despite going to the gym almost everyday, and figured there was no point in keeping it going. The day before New Years Eve, I found myself taking breaks to climb the stairs in my house because I couldn't breathe and decided to get on the scale,
243 stared back at me, and I decided it was time to do something about the weight.. once and for all. I wouldn't see 250.
that was 2 YEARS ago. 2 years ago I was in a size 22 (and that was 90% sweat/yoga pants because those 22s were tight but I refused to size up)
I couldn't breathe going up stairs, and I stopped carrying my youngest anywhere really because I just couldn't anymore. I was unhappy with how I looked. I was severely depressed. I really hated life most days.
I decided it was time to fix it. I had to. I couldn't keep going on like this.
After that first month, I had lost 10lbs, and that motivated me enough to keep going.
last year, I saw something Amazing on the Scale, Something I never thought I'd see again..
Onederland Was always my Major Goal, not my Ultimate, not the Final one, But always ALWAYS the thing I tried for. The major goal that when I hit it, I knew I'd make it. these last 10lbs before wonderland were the worst. The hardest. It's always been 1 step forward and 2 back since january, but it's taken forever to get rid of these 10lbs. And I did it.
2014 was a great year, Lost 60ish pounds, feeling good. In 2015, I ate a bit more bad foods, exercised less.. slipped back into old habits. tried many things to pick myself up again. Did a couple new diet plans. ad goals that was wasn't as motivated as I thought I was to acheive them.. so I didn't.
By the end of the year I was back in a size 20. however I went to the doctor and she couldn't stop saying enough good things about how well I was doing. I got my A1C checked and I'm down 2 points, Still pre diabetic, but a little less. Glad I kept atleast one pair of "fat pants" around. Didn't want to weigh myself because I knew it was going to be bad news.
Finally, I decided I needed to do something drastic to loose the weight.
And I got on the scale..
was staring back at me this time. Not good news. I freaked out. I figured, maybe 210. Never would of guessed I slipped that much off the rails. I instantly found the motivation to give up sugar. I decided just the cookies and candy, etc, but it's taken a life of it's own and I've given up almost all forms of sugar, hidden or not and ALL fast food(including most processed store foods). I read labels, I drink PLAIN water (used to be crystal light all day long) and fruit has finally become sweet enough for me without adding anything to it.
I'm hoping by the end of the month I'll be back into wonderland. that's 9lbs from now. I'm learning all kinds of stuff and I'm grateful for wherever the motivation is coming from to keep me going.
*I want to be in a size 10/12.
*I want to play with my kids without being winded
*I want to not be embarrassed to try on bathingsuits
*I want to be healthier
Now that I'm finally under 200lbs, I can't wait to see where I end up!
Diet: Eating a pretty clean/whole foods diet. Not having any Sugar products and SEVERELY limited Processed foods. No Fast food items.
Exercise: Gym atleast 5 days a week on the Elliptical, And when the weather warms up, Some running outside perhaps. I listen to my Zombies, Run! app while doing so. I do some strength training as well, but I'm still working on a schedule for all of it.
Starting Weight: 243-12/30/2013
Current Weight: 198
Mini Goal: 223 *3-1-14
Mini Goal: 210 *5.26.14
Mini Goal: 203.5 *getting Nails done* 8-2-14
Big GOAL!! 199!!! New exercise stuff! 9-3-14
Birthday Goal: 190 *getting Hair Cut!* 11-1-14
Current: 214 ~ 1/21
Mini Goal 210 ~1/31
Big goal: 199!
Mini Goal 190
Final Goal 180
Secrets of Success
This user doesn't have any secrets of success.
| Pounds lost: 2.0
I saw your comment on the "embarrassed" to work out page. I identified with everything you said, from working out in front of my husband to hating to sweat. I'm pushing through it and wanted you to know I get it! Keep up the good work!
50 days ago
I definitely agree the BMI charts are flawed, too.
I only heard of the different ranges when I joined an online health community and couldn't participate in one of their modules (heart age), because there weren't enough data points in my weight class, then they showed a colored band denoting the different weight classes. Figured those are a good marker to include in my countdowns.
At my height, each of those bands is 32-33lbs apart.
51 days ago
I just friended you. I thought it would be a nice thing being we share common experiences. Please do friend me. I would like that very much. Message me any time for anything.
52 days ago
Comment edited on: 8/8/2016 11:32:44 PM
Thanks for taking the time to comment. I'm glad your partner is getting help. One thing I've read from support forums for spouses of OCPD is that they don't get help unless they get an ultimatum from their partner (though most OCPD never get as far as marriage, gee, I wonder why?). I won't issue an ultimatum, it's not in my nature.
And, yes, for the past six years, it's mainly been directed at me. The kids used to get some of it, but, he had a little wakeup call at that point and toned down a lot.
I guess I started seeing things as soon as we got married. I suggested to him counseling then. It got really bad after our son was born and I returned to work/school, it was awful for 2 years straight. I was trying everything then to get him into counseling then, having friends talk to him who'd been through. Sad thing about OCPD is one of the symptoms is always thinking you're right, so he doesn't see the point of psychological treatment (though he self-diagnosed a few years back).
I've had a few recent wakeup calls that I can't spend the rest of my life living according to his rules. I'll never have a real vacation or a decent diet or self-esteem if I do.
53 days ago
Re: comment on BOBCATGIRL76 blog about "why you left". I read lots of blogs that I don't comment on, so you could have many followers that you don't know about. I have also noticed that those who blog at least several times a week tend to have more followers and commenters. Some of them "friend" everyone who ever comments on a blog, others want more interaction before "friending" someone. I am among the ones who hasn't "friended" a lot of people although many have "friended" me. We each have our own ways of interacting on Spark.
I hope you don't give up on this site, just use it however works best for you.
113 days ago