This is me in front of my mirror trying to take a picture of me for my profile.
I've lost more than a thousand pounds in my lifetime...and gained more of it back.
I want to start fresh, once again. But, this time I want permanent change. I don't want to just succeed for awhile, and then get comfortable where I am. For me, if I'm not paddling forward, I'm moving backward. I've moved back enough.
It is time to get out of my isolation, to open up to others, be honest with myself and others about where I am and what's going on with my life.
I've tried to gain control over my eating without making any lasting changes. I've realized I cannot control my eating...I've tried and failed too many times to count. I can however, start being honest about what I eat, why I eat, when I eat, and what I'm feeling. I don't have to stuff it all down anymore.
I give up. I don't want to continue doing what I've been doing anymore. I've done it enough, and it hasn't worked. I want to stop the insanity.
One definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results. If I keep on doing what I've always done, I'll keep on getting what I've always gotten.
I'm ready for something new.
My goals are
1. To get healthy and lower my blood pressure.
2. Stay with the program even when I'm not at my best, healthwise, maintaining until I am able to continue progressing again.
3. Lose 210 pounds (more than half my weight.
4. Be able to shop in the normal-sized section.
5. Be able to dance and hike, and bike again.
A major part of my program is getting out of my isolation by getting involved in sparkpeople.
I'm also tracking my food intake, journaling emotions and the journey, and starting to exercise again.
My name is Deborah, and I'm originally from Louisville, KY. I have live in Florida for the past 15+ years. What I miss most is four seasons. We have only two here, "Hot", and "it's-a-little-chilly-outside". I miss the autumn leaves, smells, colors, and tastes.
| current weight: 350.4