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Even at your biggest, it's important to remember that everyone can be beautiful. Love yourself.

At my sister's graduation December 2014. 305 lbs

Posing with my beautiful sister. Around my highest, 305lbs


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When I was 13 years old, I became fed up with being the fat kid with stomach problems who never had any energy. I went from 190 lbs to 140 lbs in about 9 months. I looked and felt great, but unfortunately I didn't think I looked great. I was incredibly insecure and self conscious. I was obsessed with my measurements and every bit of food going into my mouth. Everything was about the numbers, and none of it was about how I felt. Unsurprisingly, I couldn't keep it up. I burnt out, and as the stress built up, so did my waistline.

Finally my first year of college I began to love my body. I felt far more comfortable in it at 200 lbs than I ever had at 140. I was thrilled. I could look into a mirror and see past the curve of my stomach and on to the contours of my hips and the strong lines of my back. I could see my own beauty. The moment I realized this is one of my most treasured memories. I remember starting at myself in the mirror on the back of my dorm wall and realizing that I was pretty. I nearly cried.

Unfortunately I experienced some severe health issues that resulted in my taking medication that causes weight gain. I also began a relationship with someone with an incredibly fast metabolism that ate a lot of junk food. At the same time a financial crisis erupted in my life. My weight started to climb again, and it shot up suddenly when the relationship turned toxic. I still love my body, but it's not the same. I've crossed a line with my weight. I'm not longer just heavy, I'm obese. Though I love it, it's harder to see the beauty under the fat. The beautiful curves and contours I loved are hidden behind a hundred pounds of fat.

I'm now married to a wonderful man who is undergoing this life change along side me. I am no longer alone and floundering. I'm back on track and have the support I need.

I'm focusing on the nutrition I am adding into my life, not the junk food I'm removing. I'm celebrating loose clothing and more energy, and not agonizing over the numbers on the scale. I'm seeing each and every pound as a percent towards my overall goal. My previous weight loss interrupted my life. This time, I'm going truly live. I'm going to be healthy and happy.

This is my true healthy smiles campaign.

Member Since: 10/22/2006

Fitness Minutes: 5,848

My Goals:
I'm trying to make more reasonable seeming and smaller goals and stick to them. Instead of beating myself up for not reaching a large goal, I get to celebrate small successes and just keep planning more goals. For now, instead of planning for a healthy weight range goal, I'm just looking to shed the obesity.

*Lose 100 lbs
*Do a push up
*Be able to grab my ankles from a bridge/back bend
*Get my BMI below 30.
*Bring my resting heart rate into the 70's
*Join in a 5K walk with my family
*Feel better
*Lose 25 lbs before ZENKAZE!

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My Program:
* Limit calories to between 2300 and 2500 per day.
*Eat at least two servings of fruits or veggies a day.
*Cut out most refined sugar.
*Track my food every day, even on off days
*Make myself eat consistent, 600 calorie meals

Personal Information:
I just spent the past two years at The College of Idaho as a biology major. I recently transferred to Idaho State University where I am changing to a microbiology major.

Diseases fascinate me.

Other Information:
When I exercise my favorite cardio machine is the elliptical trainer. Outside of the gym I like to bike.
At the moment I'm really out of shape, and I'm an asthmatic. Basically I just do what I can and work up to more impressive things.

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