My issue with weight started early. In high school I became anorexic for fear that I would get fat. I slowly had to let go of the whole control issue with food. I taught myself that food was not an outlet for gaining control of my life. Food was for nourishment and should be enjoyed.
However, now I feel like I have gone other end of the spectrum. I have been on a constant diet yo yo for years. I have to admit - for the past for years - I have not dieted. However I have gained twice as ...

My issue with weight started early. In high school I became anorexic for fear that I would get fat. I slowly had to let go of the whole control issue with food. I taught myself that food was not an outlet for gaining control of my life. Food was for nourishment and should be enjoyed.
However, now I feel like I have gone other end of the spectrum. I have been on a constant diet yo yo for years. I have to admit - for the past for years - I have not dieted. However I have gained twice as much weight. I do not like the way I feel or look.
I know the true harmony with my food issues needs to be a change of lifestyle. No one really teaches you the proper eating habits - the healthy habits, anyway.
Slowly I will, I must begin my journey to changing my lifestyle and loose weight. I do not want all the negative consequences that being overweight creates (ex - high blood pressure, diabetes, bad self esteem).
If I don't take charge of my life - no one else will. I know this will be difficult but I must really try this time.
Therefore any motivation or advice is greatly appreciated and needed.
Here is the beginning of my journey....