One day I'll fully accept being a big, tall and still pretty girl. Heck, I'll be fitter than models.
The light at the end of the tunnel. Light estimated arrival date 365 days.
Let the serenity of nature-and my other one true hobby of photography be my guide and motivation.
Someone who used to be fit, tall and slim, but stupidly gave it all up 3 years ago to chase an impossible ideal.
This whole weight thing probably started 3 years ago in my junior year of high school, when I was shopping for new jeans with my mom at Old Navy. I had previously not known, or cared, anything about my weight, measurements or pants size. So we went in the store to check out their jeans special that was $15 dollars for a pair.
I remembered that the shorts I was wearing were a size 8, so I went to pull out a pair of size 8 jeans. The "just below the waist" type. Tried it out, and my mother made a comment about how its a tad too small, and there is no way she would buy me ill fitting clothes. So we ended up leaving the store with a pair of size 10's.
Didn't realize it then, but that was the first time an idea was planted in my head that I was not skinny or pretty enough, needed to have a double digit size. Soon after, with two weeks of starving myself I completed eliminated my pooch, was wearing the size 8's loosely, and everything seemed right...
Until I started binging. And binging. And binging. Stopped a little the summer after senior year, but then binged the entirety of my freshman year at high school, with even more fattening foods than I ever had access to when living at home.
Result: 6', loose size 10, 153 lb TO: 6' 1/4"(I did grow a bit), very tight size 12, 180lbs. I suppose I'm too be thankful that I didnt balloon to 200 with my daily binging,.
Injuring my hip muscles in May 2009 was the saddest and yet best eye opener that I could have gotten. Now that I needed to accept that I can't always wishy-washily "go sweat out some cardio" every time I "overate", I am finally forced to take my health seriously. To win back the happiness that was exercising, I must not only tone up(I've lost some fat and am a comfortable size 10 again in various companies), but actually lose body mass.
CURRENT MEASUREMENT 8/5/2009
Waist(at narrowest): 31.8"
Hips: 41" (child bearing hips at a non child bearing age...)
Weight: 173 lbs(average) @.@
To lose 15-20 lbs, without losing too much muscle definition.
To be light enough to be a runner(after said 15-20lbs) again.
I seem to have toning up down to a science, but fail at the losing actual weight part.
MY FREAKING HIPS. :headdesk: :headwall: :headcement:
Considering the massive amounts of hip pain from prolonged strenuous exercise, I will break things up and cross train as much as possible.
2x 30 day shred per week
1 run per week(LSD)
This is my favorite quote from my high school cross country days(I'm still trying to work with them this summer)
"To give anything than your best is to sacrifice the gift"-Steve Prefontaine.
6-13-08: Its still my favorite quote, but I'm more rather willing to accept anyway down the weight ladder and up in binge free days.
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| current weight: 173.0