I sorta look like my virtual model. Weight = 175
My mom always says never give up. It may be a lifelong battle, but you can't give up. If so, you are just resigning yourself to be fat and unhealthy and die early. I may have to re-dedicate myself to getting healthy and reaching my ideal weight over and over again, but if that's what it takes, I'm gonna do it! I owe it to my inner self to fight and win this battle with my weight. I always felt like a chubby child, not really fat, but just chubby enough to be "the fat one" in my family. When I look back at pictures of me as a small child, I was a healthy weight. But my poor body image lead to unhealthy eating habits as I got older and by the time I was in the fourth grade, I weighed 100 pounds. During middle school, I tried fad diets, and although I probably only weighed about 130, I felt much larger than my school girl friends. In high school, I got up to about 150 pounds, which at 5'6" isn't extremely overweight by any means, but I always felt fat. I dreaded swimming in the pool during gym class or changing clothes in the locker room with my peers. In college, I maintained a healthy weight of about 135 pounds but after graduation and a bad break up with a long term boyfriend, I had gotten up to 165 pounds. After our break up, I quickly dropped back down to 135 pounds and leveled out at about 145 for a while. But, in 2004 I moved out of my home state for 10 months and was so depressed that I put on over 60 pounds in only 10 short months. I came home weighing about 206 pounds. This was by far the heaviest I'd ever been. It happened so fast I didn't even realize how big I was. I knew I was constantly shopping for larger clothes and nothing seemed to fit, but it wasn't until I was entering the bank one afternoon and got a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the large glass entrance doors at the bank that I realized, Oh my, I'm a fat girl! Not that I just feel big or need to lose a few pounds to feel good in my own skin, but everyone must actually see me as FAT! I joined weight watchers with the support of my mom and managed to lose about 20 pounds. I quit going to meetings and gained back about 5 pounds before I found spark people. I joined SP on November 4, 2008 weighing in at 190 pounds. During the first couple of months, I lost 22 pounds, for a low of 168 pounds. I was on a roll and then after Christmas, I just hit a plateau and over the next year and a half the weight crept back up to the mid 170's It's now August 2010, approaching 2 years since I first joined SP and I am still trying to reach my goal. But, I will never give up!
"The tragedy of life is not death; rather, it is what we allow to die within us while we live."
- Norman Cousins
Life is not about finding yourself
Life is about Creating yourself.
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My ultimate goal is to get to 125 lbs. Only because I've always wanted to weight in the 120's. But, realistically, 135 was a great weight for me when I was there, but I gained over 60 lbs in 2004 and topped out at 206. I dieted using weight watchers and lost almost 20 pounds. But, after quitting the program and not dieting at all for over a year, I was back up to 190. This is the weight I was when I started SP.
I 'm trying to eat as many whole foods as possible, including as much organic produce as I can afford. I have always limited red meat and chicken to only once or twice a week, if at all. I do love seafood though. Also trying to limit treats to only occasionally, not every night. Just recently finished Martha's Vineyard's 21 day juice detox! I'm also doing low impact aerobics twice a week and stretching more. I'm just trying to be more active in general. We got rid of cable, started walking and riding bikes and working in the yard. Of course, I'm logging all my calories on SP too!
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| current weight: 172.0
After you completed the 21 day detox - did you regain any of the weight? Did you use protein shakes when you did it or not? And last, where did you get the supplements - from Martha's Vineyard or from somewhere else?
1868 days ago
Actually, it's short for my last name Piazza! But that's cool!
2229 days ago
Is your middle name Pia? So is mine...very unusual!
Nice to see you.
2230 days ago
Thank you for your insight on my blog! I think you may be on to something--my son's bed IS a bunk bed, and I lifted him to the top (he's 6 years old, too, so not exactly a light load!) I don't think I would have fainted had it not been for the ice cream, but I think you're right that all the circumstances together is what caused it. I certainly learned a rough lesson that night.
2257 days ago