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With this being yet another time of promising myself that I am going to stick to it and make this weight loss work, I have come to the realization that the problem is I am trying to force myself to get healthy. I havenít come in to sparkpeople faithfully. I havenít stuck to any healthy eating plan. I then punish myself and am too hard on myself when I mess up. Time to face some facts: 1. I love food., 2. I am an emotional and stress eater., 3. I am always in pain., 4. I have 2 eating disorders: ...
With this being yet another time of promising myself that I am going to stick to it and make this weight loss work, I have come to the realization that the problem is I am trying to force myself to get healthy. I havenít come in to sparkpeople faithfully. I havenít stuck to any healthy eating plan. I then punish myself and am too hard on myself when I mess up. Time to face some facts: 1. I love food., 2. I am an emotional and stress eater., 3. I am always in pain., 4. I have 2 eating disorders: CE and NES (Compulsive Eating and Night Eating Syndrome). For a long time those were my crutch. I think I have now figured it out. I am not perfect. I am a work in progress. I will make mistakes. I will fall off. I will get back on. I will keep learning. I will turn to my family and friends. I will not keep using all the excuses I have in the past.

Why Do I want to lose weight?
1. So I will continue to breathe
2. So I feel better about myself
3. So I look better and not embarassed to go out in public
4. So I can fit into a booth in a restaurant
5. So I can fit into a normal size stall in a public restroom and not have to use the handicapped stall
6. So I can fit in a ride at the amusement park.
7. So my seatbelt will fit.
8. So I can run around and play with my grandsons without feeling like I am going to die
9. So I can be brave enough to wear a bathing suit (proudly) to the beach. (If men happen to do double takes, all the better) and
10. So I can prove to myself and (in small part) to the man who for 4 years told me I will always be fat, never have any kind of success, ďworthless fat piece of sh^$T%#Ē (quote) and Iíd be better off dead.
So, hereís to 2012! A new me, a happy me, a FREE me!!!
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Member Since: 2/29/2008

SparkPoints: 7,078

Fitness Minutes: 6,016

My Goals:
Three month weigh ins, goals, etc for a total of 12 months/.
Goal 1: to lose 38 lbs by Oct. 23, 2012 (252)
Goal 2: to lose
Goal 3: to lose
Goal 4: to lose



My Program:
Three month Exercise prescription
Basic healthy eating
Home cooked meals instead of store bought processed food
Walking 10 miles a week
Yoga
Various videos and dvds (home, on demand, sparkpeople, home circuit training, home Curves training)
Positive outlook
Refined behavior of myself.


Personal Information:
I live in Oregon, looking for employment and going to school. I have 2 grandsons; one who turns 6 in 3 days and one who comes into the world next month. I love to write, cook/bake, draw, read, listen to a large variety of music..

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DOLLFACEDX
1/1/2014 7:18:46 PM

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A Healthy and Happy New Year to you! Wishing you GREAT success in your 2014 goals.
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STAY39
11/4/2013 11:18:10 PM

Thanks for stopping by my blog and for planking with me!! Yes, do what she is doing in the photo. It is harder than it looks! It won't be easy but together we can do it! emoticon



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TURTLE69
4/17/2013 6:43:11 PM

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.



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TURTLE69
4/16/2013 6:00:13 PM

I saw in the huddle that you need support. You are a strong person and you can do this. Keep a positive attitude because you know you can accomplish anything.
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CHELE0329
3/31/2013 8:31:33 AM

I see you are down 12 lbs...AWESOME!!!!! WAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so very proud of you, keep up the awesome work!!!



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