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try, try again...
well, last time wasn't my last time...but its all good to try again!
i have a beautiful 5yr old girl, and a little man who just turned 1 in december :), another one on the way (due this summer) and an amazing husband who has just retired out of the army! We both now sell Primerica, and he has 2 other part time jobs. on the smaller scale... i'm pretty much sick and tired of a few (dozen) things: I'M TIRED OF...
~being called lazy
~wanting to look like -insert hottie ...
well, last time wasn't my last time...but its all good to try again!
i have a beautiful 5yr old girl, and a little man who just turned 1 in december :), another one on the way (due this summer) and an amazing husband who has just retired out of the army! We both now sell Primerica, and he has 2 other part time jobs. on the smaller scale... i'm pretty much sick and tired of a few (dozen) things: I'M TIRED OF...
~being called lazy
~wanting to look like -insert hottie here- and not doing anything to actually work towards it
~avoiding mirrors
~the whole rubby thigh thing (you know...)
~not being able to wear cute boots!! ((found some, problem is, they don't make them small enough! apparently, fat chicks can't have little feet!!!))
~not likening any clothes that i can fit! they make the WORST looking clothes for big girls! ((and even the cute ones, i hate how they look on me!)) and don't even get me started on maternity clothes! i have to drive over 2 hours to go to a store that sells my size!
~being told i'm beautiful and not being able to believe it... you may think so, but i feel like i'm trapped in ugly cause of the weight :(
~having the knowledge to be thin (hello, just cause i don't use the knowledge doesn't mean i don't have it! i know all about calories, servings, work outs, etc, but no one will take me seriously (even my husband) because i'm still fat!)
~~TIRED OF BEING COMPARED TO MY COUSIN! *she's so pretty, she's so strong, she's so self centered (usually followed by, ur starting to remind me of her...) she''s lost so much weight (um, no, she hasn't...she just wears her jeans high enough to where they suck all the fat in) ALL MY LIFE I'VE BEEN TRYING TO BE JUST LIKE HER...I'M DONE! sorry honey, i'm not like her at all! and i would hate to be like her! everything people say she is "strong" for...she brought on herself, and i'm sorry, but my "solution" for everything will not be ""well, if it goes wrong, i'll just kill myself"" yeah, not the person i want to look up to or be compared to ANYMORE.
sorry, had to get that out... :D
i'm TIRED of being compared to someone else! I AM ME! and if I have to shout to make myself heard, i will! i'm tired of living in someone else's shadow!
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Member Since: 10/12/2008
SparkPoints: 4,525
Fitness Minutes: 1,688
My Goals:
starting SP: 274 (that was quite a while ago...about 2 years, or so...)
currently 280 :(
still working on setting goals...
goal 1) walk every day. even a little.
goal 2) drink my water
My Program:
*TRACK MY FOOD
*TRACK MY WATER
*POST ON TEAMS
*KEEP MOVING ALL THE TIME! sitting at the desk? move my legs, swivel in the chair...anything to keep moving!
Personal Information:
my name is jene, i'm from the coast of washingon and have a beautiful little girl, little boy, and a little girl on the way. We were an army family and now live in arizona! really miss korea and the foods they offered!
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