about three years ago, i lost 66 pounds. i went from 265 down to 199 and it felt so good to get out of the 200's. I got pregnant and had a baby and gained 30 lbs. soon after the birth of my son, i lost 10 of that. but by the time he turned 2, i was back up to 240. there was no consolation in the fact that i wasn't back at 265. i am stripping myself of excuses of why i can't be active. sure there are some things (like lunges) i can't do right now, but in a couple dozen pounds from now, my knees will be able to handle more. at 265, i can remember avoiding being in public too often. i joked with my uncle one day, "I wore my hair down so everyone who saw me would say, 'wow, look at all that hair!' instead of 'look at that fat lady.' then i thought, what if they say, "wow! look at all the hair on that fat lady!"
of course it was a funny joke but my health is no laughing matter. there are things i know i can not eat on a daily basis and be healthy. there are other things i am learning to enjoy as an occasional treat in moderation. i am not the fat lady with all the hair, i am the woman who is taking charge of her health and habits.