I am really hoping to get below 200 this is my short term goal. The day I started spark people the battery in my scale broke. So I am starting from 227, I was very strict the first 6 days. I work in a restaurant and have been very serious about staying within my calorie goal range. Sunday came and I decided to give myself a "free day" where I didn't track and I didn't care. Surprisingly I did not over do it like I usually do. I am not even sure if I used all of my calories that day. So today is day 9-10 and I feel pretty good about things. I am not exercising as often or for as long as I would like to but I a have two kids and I am starting out with the mind frame that more is better than nothing, and even if it is one minute or one second more than I typically do, I deserve to feel proud about that minute.
Today I brought my son to basketball, and a fellow parent commented how great I looked and how it looks like I have lost weight, I was excited, but nervous, I wasn't sure if I had lost, and it is ALWAYS hard to take a compliment. I also felt like it was easier because i didnt know if I had lost or not. it was kind of fun and freeing, not knowing that number in my head, that symbol of self worth....I am kind of realizing, feeling good is even better than that number, and I can achieve feeling good, with out that number. so ... i am continuing to try to stay positive and appreciate the small things in life. It is freeing not thinking about weighing myself daily, or multiple times a day.