Welcome back to Spark People ! I know things may seem overwhelming right now, but you can take control of your life again. At one time or another, every single member has felt the same way. We're all experts at gaining, losing and regaining the weight. You can't change the past, but you can influence and change the future.
Don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality. if the only healthy thing you were to do for yourself today was to drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction. Don't try to be perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy. Start with some simple changes.
Example, if you're not used to eating 6-9 servings of fresh fruit and veggies, set a goal to eat 2-3 servings each day for one week. If you're not used to drinking 8 glasses of water, set a goal to drink 2-4 glasses each day for one week. If you're not used to regular exercise, set a goal to take a 30 minute walk each day for one week. Once you've achieved these goals, then you set new ones.
And that's how good health starts. Don't worry about how much weight you have to lose. instead, start with the first five pounds. One small change is all it takes to change your life.
Now, have you ever considered talking to a therapist about your issues with food ? Don't be afraid to seek professional help. Going to your doctor for a physical every year is just as important for your long term health as the losing weight is. It's important to take care of yourself inside and out. If you're struggling emotionally, that's going to make weight loss difficult.
One thing you might do is join some of the great Spark Teams. There is a Spark Team for members who are dealing or dealt with eating disorders. Join the group. You may find the support helpful. www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_individ
Take things one day at a time. One meal at a time. Be kind to yourself as you would to others.