ghosts of the past

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6/20/11 4:02 P

Glad you are getting back up to fight again. I found that I like the crunch of Special K cereal with strawberries. I get a cup of those now when I need something - fewer calories than chips and gives me the crunchiness when I need it.

Can you make a list of healthy, crunchy alternatives and buy those to stock up on instead of chips?

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6/20/11 3:27 P

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6/20/11 3:21 P

ShellieBellie, I love the line "i just lost the battle this time. but...not the war." I'm going to add that to my motivational lines, because it is SO true.

When I get in those mindsets, i agree that it is really hard to get out of them, and I applaud your actions, like blogging. I hope that by the time you finished that blog entry you were feeling better. That happens to me sometimes. When I journal or pray during those difficult times, I end up reminding myself that there are good things in my life, and good people.

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6/20/11 2:47 P

i so agree. we show kindness, comopassion, loyalty to others, but to ourselves, we are the voice that mocks and ridicules. being kind to yourself is a very daunting task. and must be practiced daily so that it becomes a habit.

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6/20/11 1:15 P

You're quite right. One bad weekend does not mean you should give up on the rest of the week. As the old cliche goes,"don't throw the baby out with the dirty bath water".

I've told members that if they eat right 5 out of 7 days, they're still doing better than the average American. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy and one weekend where you ate a little bit more than you should does not make you a bad person.

You're trying to change habits learned over a life time. That's not going to happen overnight, a week, a month or a year. Change takes time. Thus the need to be patient with yourself as well as your body.

I think the hardest lesson to learn is to be kind to yourself as you would to others.

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6/20/11 1:03 P

well i did not stay true to myself this past weekend. i had a bad day friday and it continue to spiral downwards all weekend. i had a pity party for myself and i was the only invited guest. i found myself eating food i knew was unhealthy and making me feel pretty crappy, on purpose. i was punishing myself for taking that first bite of failure. and yes it was a failure. because i knew my frame of mind and i knew i was headed to a very dark place and i just shouldnt have eaten that first bite. and it was chips. my trigger food. im all for allowing for treats and splurging once in awhile...but...when im that down i should have had popcorn instead and had the same enjoyment factor of the crunchiness but no i had chips. because i wanted to punish myself and then, well many years of being treated badly, by myself and by others just all came flooding back. the party had begun. and i do no better. i do journal and blog thru these tough emotions, usually. i just lost the battle this time. but...not the war.
im back to fighting the good fight and im pretty ok with liking the person looking back at me, despite the myriad of faults.
the message, the point......we all mess up. its gonna happen. sometimes willingly and sometimes not. brush yourself off. listen to your favourite...i can take on this world and noones gonna stop me music, watch out here i come music and get back to this journey of life.