Ugh - what a crappy week. I found out on Tuesday that due to financial reasons, we have to postpone our wedding which had been booked for September 8th this year to June 1, 2013. We got engaged in October 2011 and I know that the responsible thing to do was to postpone the wedding but it still was a really hard decision and left me feeling really depressed this week. Which snowballed into me calling in "sick" to work for two days and basically trying to eat everything in sight.
BUT this is a new week and I realize that I need to stay motivated and not sabotage my own progress - I've lost 18 pounds since November 1st and I know I have a habit of doing that, especially right before the 20 pound marker. Psychologically, I always end up quitting in past weight loss attempts right around here - I don't know what it is that makes me afraid of crossing that marker but I think this time I'm just going to go for it even if I am a little afraid.