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171 1/24/13 4:27 P
I want to thank you all for your support and kindness. I just came home from my CT Scan and the results should be given to me by tomorrow afternoon. I'm holding it together...trying to stay positive....and praying. I'll post as soon as I know. Regardless of the outcome....I"m a fighter.....I'll survive.
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1/24/13 1:57 P
Don't beat yourself up because you turned to food for comfort. We all would do the same if faced with the medical situation you're going through. You are not a bad person or an unhealthy one because you ate one too many deviled eggs. It happens. You're human. put it out of your mind.
As I tell all new members,"don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality". If the only healthy thing you did for yourself today was drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction.
Right now, don't worry about how many calories you eat. instead, try to eat as healthfully as possible. Eat wholesome foods that nourish your body because right now, you need to keep your energy up.
You're a strong woman who's already passed round 5. that's phenomenal !! Everything really will be okay.
Yikes! Scared out of your mind is the only reasonable reaction that I can think of. I've only done one round - I'm in awe that you've won 5 rounds.
That's great that your doc is getting you in for the scan right away - as you know, the waiting and not knowing is the worst part, so it's great that you'll know sooner rather than later.
You already know that logic says that enlarged lymph nodes after an infection are absolutely normal and incredibly common. You already know that any intelligent doc is going to take a look at your history and take the extra step to double check anything that could be questionable, no matter how slight the risk. So - you already know that the odds are really, really good that this isn't going to turn out to be anything scary.
What you also already know is that once you get past the scary unknown and get to "knowing", then whatever it is will be something that you can deal with. Ride the emotions tonight and deal with them in whatever way you need to. Just remember that it's only for a short time and you'll come out the other side knowing what's actually happening, and strong and able to deal with it.
Strong thoughts to you, and best wishes for quick answers.
1/23/13 5:49 P
Hang in there...you sound like one hell of a fighter if I've ever heard of one!!
1/23/13 5:47 P
I'm so sorry you're having such a scary time. I pray it will turn out to be nothing to worry about. If there is one friend or family member you feel you could confide in just for today, maybe it will help ease your mind to have someone to lean on. I will keep you in my prayers and hope you are able to have a restful night. And definitely don't sweat the deviled eggs -- there are times when comfort food is meant to be consumed!
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171 1/23/13 5:07 P
I went to the doctor to check up on a minor sinus infection I had been experiencing. I was given some good news in that my sinus infection was gone however, the doctor found a large lump in the back of my throat. I would not be worried but her put me in immediately for a CT scan so until tomorrow morning.....I"m going to be worried, out of my mind, until then. I'm most scared because I am a cancer survivor X5. For me, the could potentially be "Round 6". I already screwed up my night by tackling 6 deviled eggs (3 eggs) and I won. I don't want to tell anyone until I know for sure but being alone right now is probably my worst enemy. I'm scared. I don't how to handle this anymore.....I'm not sure I ever did.
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