Hi, SHOWDEE !
You can't change the past, but you can influence and change the future. Every single one of us here on Spark are experts at gaining, losing and regaining the weight. Well, there came a time when we said,"we need to make a change" and that's why we're here on SP.
Don't look at weight loss with an all or nothing mentality. if the only healthy thing you were to do for yourself today was drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction. Start with some simple goals. Don't try to do everything at once or you will end up frustrated. No one ever became a healthier eater overnight. it's impossible. that's why we start with simple changes.
If you're not used to eating 6-9 servings of fresh fruit and veggies, then set a goal to eat 2-3 servings each day for one week. If you're not used to drinking 8 glasses of water, then set a goal to drink 2-4 glasses each day for one week. if you're not used to regular exercise, then set a goal to walk 30 minutes each day for one week. Once you've achieved these goals, then you create new ones.
Weight loss is a slow steady process that takes time. You didn't gain the weight overnight, it's not coming off overnight. Start with those simple changes. With time, they will help you achieve your goals.