to SparkPeople, Pam!
Congratulations on all the weight you lost! I'm with Coach Nancy-- you are not a failure just because you gained a bit of it back. And I agree with the goal-setting. Personally I like to pick things that require some effort on my part, but are not *too* difficult. Nothing breeds success, like success. Like for example, exercise. Instead of saying, I'll do 60 minutes of whatever every day, make it a goal to do 10 minutes of brisk walking 5 days. If you really feel like doing more, do more. But 10 is enough to start.
One thing that jumped out at me from your post, was the mention of fatigue. Have you had a physical recently? Like, within the last year? I know everybody's different, and there are a lot of medical conditions that can cause fatigue. But when I went through menopause, I also developed hypothyroidism. Probably just a coincidence. But I was chalking everything up to menopause and just dragged myself around for months and months. It's like you keep eating, hoping it'll give you some energy just to get through the day. It never really gave me any energy and I'd always feel like, well I blew it today, may as well wait til tomorrow to start the diet. So if you haven't been checked out recently, I'd suggest a visit to the doctor.
SparkPeople is just such an amazing site, full of all kinds of helpful information and tools to help us along the way. They say a journey of a thousand miles, starts with just one step. And you've already taken that one.