"Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent." - Marilyn Vos Savant;
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Hi, Colin! Failing is falling and not getting up again. Practice makes perfect. I have lost and regained many times, but this one is different. The Sparkpeople community is so helpful, not only with the weightloss, but also the maintenance. This is my 3rd time here, but this time, I got it right. You can, too!
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Get rid of negative thinking & get & stay positive! Best wishes to you.
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My name is Collin Farnsworth, I am 26 soon to be 27 years old and have struggled with my weight since I can remember. I am 280 pounds today and aim to lose all the weight that has stopped me from doing some of the things I love, and from forming relationships with the people I desire. I have gone through many of the stages of Depression and Dysthymia and have always used Food and Alcohol to bring me comfort.
As someone who wasn't diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome until I was 20 years old, growing up I was looked at as a disappointment and or failure. I was considered Lazy, Not Ambitious, Not motivated, etc. etc. Aspergers also played a huge role for me socially as I grew up misunderstood by my peers and sadly did not have a plethora of friends.
I tell you all of this because it has formed me into the person I am today. My greatest fear is still Failure. Until a month ago Food was my main source of comfort. I viewed myself as a victim of my circumstances and that Life was just unfair. All in all I was content with thinking I didn't have the power to succeed.
On February 25 of 2013 I made the decision to change my life. I realized that I had put myself in the circumstances I am in and that if I put myself there then I had the power to take myself out of those poor circumstances and put myself into whatever opportunities I so chose. With the help of the "Law of Attraction" or better known as "The Secret" I have attempted daily to be the most positive person I can be to attract the experiences and opportunities that I so desired. I have realized that my issue in the past was that i only focused on my body and not my mind. I didn't believe I deserved to be happy and successful. Now I believe I am destined for great things and have the power to be the person I want to be if I put in the hard work.
When it comes to the hard work and weight loss and food I have taken the mindset that I control my happiness and that food is fuel and not comfort. I have tried to eat healthy but have found that I over-do it and starve myself, so I slip-up a little and eat too much. As someone who never took an interest in Nutrition I have realized that I am very uneducated on the subject but have been trying my best to learn every day. I have changed my sleep schedule so that I wake up in the morning and have breakfast and try not to snack after dinner and get to bed early. All in all I am attempting. The issue is that I have yet to see meaningful results. I have lost maybe 8 pounds in over a month if that, the scale fluctuates so frequently its hard to believe it.
I have attempted to exercise frequently but things come up and excuses are made. I have never had a problem with exercising when it comes to sports as sports is a passion of mine. I have always played basketball 1-2 times a week enjoying every minute. What is difficult is finding that same joy in the weight room or on the treadmill etc. etc. Becoming sore is a huge deterrent for me and stops me from working muscles that i don't generally use. As someone who is doing this all by myself I don't have someone to push me or guide me with their knowledge in the gym for the best results with the least amount of pain.
On April 1st I have started the Couch to 5k program with a goal to be able to run a 30 minute 5k in 9-11 weeks. I have purchased running shoes and am committing myself to this goal as I have always volunteered at this particular 5k but never run it. I hope that with some of your help and advice I will be able to succeed in not only this one project but in other facets of my life.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I look forward to hearing your thoughts and opinions.
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