Reading your post, you definitely have a lot of things that you can use as motivation. A new baby, a book (that will *fingers crossed* you will soon find representation for) and a girlfriend. Your own personal health should also be a big motivation because you should be doing this all for you. Sparkpeople has great resources and great people. Best of luck with your weightloss. Don't hesitate to sparkmail me if you have a question or need someone to help keep you accountable.