Hello all. My name is Marjorie and I joined SparkPeople a couple of years ago with every intention of utilizing it to become healthy and feel good about myself. I registered and...that's where it stopped. I figured, "I can do this on my own. I have before. I'll be just fine." It's 2013 and I'm back. Every time I opened my e-mail there were SparkPeople articles and pointers and encouragement but I felt so convicted that I would delete them and go on about my day. So I humbly return to SparkPeople, not because I want to be skinny, but because I want to be healthy and, let's face it, it's a lot easier when you have a group of people working toward a common goal.
At almost 36 years old I am at the highest weight I've ever been in my life. My biggest issue is motivation. I have trouble getting started or, when I DO start on my own, I have trouble keeping that motivation. I must say, the scale is my enemy. If I don't think I've lost enough I get discouraged and stop because I figure, "it's not helping anyway...why bother?" It also doesn't help when you are partnered with someone who has the mentality of "I know I need to lose, but I'll do it when I'm ready" and every time I mention that I could use a brownie, she is more than willing to provide said brownie...with a cookie to go with it and, hey, since today is blown you might as well eat some pizza and try again tomorrow. That coupled with someone who isn't so strong willed in this area isn't a good mix. And I don't ask her to not do those things so I'm at fault for allowing it.
I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be healthy. I want to climb stairs without my knees hurting and being short of breath. I want to not feel tired all the time.
So...here we go again. :-) I'll take it one day at a time in hopes that patience and perserverance prevails with a little encouragement along the way, celebrating every success...be it a half of a pound lost or being able to walk the neighborhood without getting winded.
Wish me luck!