Welcome to SP! I know it's hard, but I promise, eating better and exercising routinely does get easier after you've been doing it for a little bit. Just focus on small changes at a time. Pick a couple nutrition goals, like drinking all 8 glasses of water every day, and adding 2-3 servings of fruits and vegetables every day. Once you met those goals for a week or two, add in a couple more goals, but keeping meeting those as well. This is a much easier approach than changing all your eating habits at once. Also, it really does help to look at it as a healthy lifestyle change, rather than just something temporary until the weight comes off. Then, you know that occasionally, you can still have fried foods, and I know many of us have chocolate a few times a week. The trick is to only eat an appropriately-sized serving, and that will also get easier with time.