I have been meaning to reply to this, but have been so busy lately I haven't had the chance.
Thank you for your words. I've been trying to keep a diary of my accomplishments and what I'm proud of.
My husband got a job in Seattle, which is 6 hours from "home" So we are in the middle of moving there, and I'm very excited, and sad at the same time. I'm going to miss my family and friends. But the opportunities here for my health are going to be wonderful.
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I am so sorry to hear that you're having such a difficult time. Believe me, I know what it feels like (just read my blog...lol)
If there are any encouraging words I can provide, it's this: you are worth the effort. You are worth every bit of thought, love, and care that you put into yourself. Nothing is ever so bad that it is worth losing your health or your sanity.
I nearly died 2 1/2 years ago and seriously, everything in your life can be replaced except your health. If you have been prescribed anti-depressants, you NEED to be taking them regularly. It's Russian roulette if you go off meds too quickly or without a doctor's supervision. As someone who lives with severe clinical depression and panic disorder, my life turns upside down if I miss medication. I hate taking it, too, and wish it were different, but if I want to be healthy, I've got to do whatever it takes to BE healthy.
This may sound Pollyana-ish, but something that helps me every day is that I write down at least five things that I am grateful for. No matter how bad or how crappy or how crazy the day has been, I won't go to sleep without doing this. We spend too much of our lives fixing problems and so forget how much GOOD we experience every day. It may feel weird or silly at first, but believe me, it helps.
I keep telling myself "Today is the day!" But I keep talking myself out of starting. There are a lot of things going on in my life that I'm using as an excuse. My health. It just keeps getting worse. My husband lost his job recently, and is having trouble finding a new job. So we may be homeless and car-less soon. I'm most worried about losing our animals though. Seems silly, right? I get weighed on Wednesday, which also happens to be my 22nd birthday. I'm hoping I've lost a little. As I've been trying to eat less. But with everything that seems to be going wrong in life, I'm really getting down. I recently stopped taking anti-depressants, and don't want to get back on them. But feel really hopeless. I'm hoping I can make a few friends on this site, that can help keep me motivated and positive. If anyone has any helpful suggestions, I'm all ears. I'd love to hear from you.
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