Hello my name is Christine and I feel like Im falling apart, 2 years ago I lost 70 lbs in 1 year I fealt amazing then somewhere a long the road I gained it all back. I have let myself down, I gave up and now I can't find 1 bit of that drive I had before. I tell myself everyday today is the day then i go and grab that nutty bar. I'm to the point of feeling that I make nobody happy and I find my self going through a self pitty trip and that IS SO NOT ME I hate it, I know the problem is that I don't make myself happy because of my appearance. I so believe that I can be beautiful if i lose the weight, i look in the mirror and just start crying. I look at pictures of when i was at 215..still way more than what i want to be but even then i was so much happier than i am now. i NEED help but i dont have the money for a gym or a personal trainer, right now my personal trainer is God, I just need to listen to him. Im scared to do this alone I feel like im at war against the world and the only thing keeping me from victory is my lazy self. I would love to do this with someone else, oh how i would love someone local to push me everyday but i dont have that. I have spent the past year moving state to state, ive had a great time but ive gained so much weight. I am now in a place I can settle down at, but i know nobody and like i already said before i need that extra push. my mom pushed me to go on here, a year later i am finally on here and crying for people to help me.
im 270lbs i want to get down to 160.