I do alanon online. There is a great site where I have met tons of supportive people. It has meetings and chat rooms. www.stepchat.com
The day that I go off the wagon is a mystery to me as well. I think that I am so used to eating unhealthy that comes natural to me. When I wake up in the morning, I have great intentions but by the time I reach the kitchen, my vision gets blurred.
I am a perfectionist so I know that I try to make too many changes at once. Then I let emotional stuff get in the way also. I think I know what I need to do, I just need to do it.
If I could stuff my emotions in a bag and forget about them, maybe I would be ok.
I like the therapist suggestion also. I think that I will set this up. My job has an employee assistance program that allows me unlimited sessions for free.
Thank you all for your responses. They were right on. I wish you all continued success as well.