Now it's a few days after Christmas and not much is better. I am feeling depressed and not quite sure why. Dave seems very out of sorts today also. I feel discouraged and unmotivated. I thought maybe coming here and writing a bit would help.
Dave and I have been married about 9 months and I feel likke we have very separate lives and families. I still feel like an outsider at his house and I feel like he is a visitor here. I am not sure if it will just take more time. It feels strange.
I know that physical exercise would help and yet I don't go and do it, I eat instead, and I know that doesn't help. I have joined the BLC team and I am hoping that will help me get motivated.
It's 2 days before Christmas and my routine is non-existent. I hope,no, make that I am going to back on task after Christmas. I am trying to not get too crazy with eating right now but I am still over doing it a bit.
I will be glad to have the normal routine back, apparently I am a creature of habit
waiting for the BLC team to start.I feel like I need support and need to give support. I am hoping the teams will be fun and encouragingly competitive. Not sure when new challenge starts, trying to be patient
Feeling a bit overwhelmed with Christmas, to much crud food and not working out
Step by step I am getting ready for the Grand Canyon, I am amazed at how many times a day I think about my choices and how it will affect me in the long run.
It has been easier to pass up cookies at work, I make it to the treadmill. My plan is to focus 1 day at a time.
I am also hoping to get on the BLC team, I realize I don't have a ton of wt to lose but I am looking for support and some friendly competition and motivation.I think it will help me to focus and get ready for my trip
Had a really good work out last night, did the treadmill on an incline and did a bit of sweating.
I am getting obsessed with hiking the Grand Canyon, I am walking on the treadmill and getting tired and I think how will I be in the Canyon, will I just give up, NO and then I keep pushing on the treadmill. It is nice to have a goal to work towards.
I keep thinking about the Grand Canyon, Dave (Hubbie) and I plan on hiking in and out in May. I know I have to physically get ready and yet I just "think" about it. I think it's time to add feet to my thoughts
I just read my last post, it's amazing what a difference a day or two can make. The last two days have been over indulging way tooo much. We celebrated Thanksgiving yesterday and I did all the things that I vowed I would not. Ate until I was in pain and then ate some more, did not exercise at all.
I started my morning today with an apple dumpling and then I stopped. I cam and found my computer, doing a bit of confessing here and some regrouping. I will go and track my apple dumpling have a cup of coffee and start on my daily water. I may be throwing away some left oversl.
I really want to change my lifestyle and become healthy, I am not going to get there with Holiday mashed potatoes even though I love them I love myself more.
So, let yesterday be in the past and today be right now.
Fitness Minutes: (2,684)
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Sounds like you are making amazing progress, even if the scale isn't moving you are seeing differences in other areas :)
Ugh, I just accidentely erased my journal. To make a long story short I had a really good work out last night. Peanut butter and jelly for breakfast and packed one for lunch, not one of my best choices but I have fruit and protein bar for snacks.
I am amazed at what can happen to me on a week end. We are at my husbands house this week end and my children are at their dad's. It always feels like a mini vacation here. We eat out, sometimes we exercise sometimes not, this week end has been a not. I haven't done horribly bad, it is just that I have lost my routine and this is not as healthy as my work week routine. Guess that's something to work on.
I can already tell that I am struggling today, I woke up very hungry today and I feel very jittery. I am thinking about nothing but food, and not in a good way. I am tired of fruit and yogurt for lunch yet I am not sure what else to pack.
I feel like i am really struggling and I am already afraid that I can't keep up this struggle for very long. Is it the looming Holidays, is it a bit too much stress at work, is it that feeling of waiting for the ball to drop. I've been doing very well for about a week, now it seems to be getting difficult.
I guess it's time to stop and take a deep breath and regroup. If this is a life long journey I need to figure out how to get thru this stuff.
Off to go find something healthy to pack for lunch
Couldn't sleep last night, so I got out of bed and came down stairs where I proceeded to start eating Halloween candy, I had 3 twix bars and then started on the chips.bout half way thru the chips I just started thinking, what am I doing? I thought about all the hard work I have done this week and how I knew a hard time was coming, it always does after a few days of doing well. I threw the chips away and came to Spark People to track my food. All and all it wasn't too bad, it was very nice to stop and get back on track so quickly. Packed a good lunch and snacks for today. Having cottage cheese and fruit for breakfast
I did the treadmill last night, it was very eye opening, my cool down speed used to be my fast speed. Some where along the way I have gotten stronger. It feels really good to be able to jog a bit. I would really like to run a 5k next summer. I know running on the treadmill is easier than running outside but it is a great start.
I found that I was getting very frustrated and not losing wt. I felt like a failure, like I couldn't get it right, I just was not losing wt. Then one day I was hopping around the sight and I saw an area about wt loss plateaus. I know these occur but it didn't occur to me that I was at a plateau, I just thought I was failing. I have tweaked a few things, like increasing my protein, I was getting only about 10% a day, now I am closer to 20%. Something as simple as having 2 glasses of water before I leave for work has made a big difference, it seems to have made me more mindful of what I am eating and drinking thru out the day.
Now, with that said I find that I am getting a bit nervous,I usually do well for about 4-5 days and then start to blow it, today is day 5 I think. I am going to try to stay very focused on the small steps and take it one day at a time.
I love Spark People, it is so helpful, I like tracking my foods and exercise and even the extra goals like water and steps. I pray that this healthy behavior continues.
I have to go to Meijer before work today, my pedometer went swimming in the toilet. I really like keeping track of steps it's another reminder and motivator for me. I have packed a good lunch with healthy snacks for today, no idea about dinner. Plan to do the treadmill tonight.
I am confident you are on the way... you write well... so keep journaling! I hope the pedometer recovers.. if not, then get another one. I got a fitbit ultra a few weeks ago and find it to be an amazing motivator...
Ok, it's kind of like "my dog ate my homework" My pedometer fell in the toilet, I rescued it but it doesn't seem to be working and if that not enough my son accidentally ran over my i-pod. Yet I had a good day, went for a walk, had a quick bike ride got some fresh air and sunshine and won a prize at a neighbors open house party.
I had a "aha" moment this morning. This journey feels like algebra, you can look at it, study it, play with it but all of a sudden you just get it. You suddenly have a light bulb moment and get algebra. I feel like I am there, all of a sudden this healthy living makes sense. I seem to be on track and not floundering as much. My work outs are going well, my eating is going well. I just pray and plan that it continues
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