This is my weight loss journal which will include everything EXCEPT my daily food intake, as there is a whole other dedicated place to enter that. This will be where I write any daily thoughts, feelings, obstacles, victories, etc etc along the way.
I've been putting off re-starting my journey due to being sick with a sinus infection and not being able to hear / having absolutely no energy. In fact, over the last week or so, my fiance and I have been eating nothing but garbage (fast food) and we've been snacking on lots of chips, cookies, etc. For me, sweets isn't the problem, i'm not a sweets addict, but I am however a chip addict. I've also been frequenting taco bell and getting one of the worst things in the world lately, the nachos bell grande. My fiance and I have been getting big mac's and all kinds of other things that not only will hinder my weight loss, but for me personally are very detrimental to my health...
I have to be more careful than some people because not only am I very overweight for my height (considered "obese" by those BMI calculator things), but my cholesterol is high, my triglycerides are VERY high, and my sugar is now slightly elevated (something that has never happened until now). These things all scare me. They are all major health risks having to do with the heart. Also, I don't exercise, which is very bad and I know that but I just haven't had any motivation. I will be completely 100% honest and say I am STILL not motivated to exercise, but I know it is a major part of my weight loss journey and it is extremely important that I force myself to get in some exercise each day, as much as I might not want to.
I have a lot of bad habits that I need to change, a lot of good habits that I need to take on, and a lot of weight that I need to lose. I want to lose this weight for ME so that that I can be healthy and look and feel better. I also want to lose this weight so I won't hate clothes hopping so much. I used to love shopping for clothes when I was that cute smaller size. "Cute" clothes don't really come in my size now, (or at least I don't feel cute in them).
The bottom line is I know how I look now and I know how I have the potential to look. I have pictures to remind me of it. I also know how healthy I used to be / feel and how unhealthy I am / feel now, and how many ailments I now have that doctors have attributed to my weight gain that would all probably go away if I simply lost the extra weight.
So while I might not be as ready as I need to be ( not at "rock bottom" yet), maybe this is a good thing because if you don't fall down that far, you won't have as far to crawl back up. This is going to be a long journey with lots of twists and turns, ups and downs i'm sure, but it's one that is necessary.