I don't thin is happy.
There is people that are thin and have obstacles like us but not not the same ones.
I think we need to be happy in our skin and feel healthy and live good no matter what size.
I think if you keep focusing on your size and worry over and over it is going to be hard if you cannot turn it around and think positive and focus on what you can do. That is how we get into the vicious cycle and its winning and we cannot let it happen.
Good luck on your journey and try to do things and think things to keep you positive and confident.
Meet friends 1 time a week and weigh 1 time a week. Sort out your meals and snacks each week and always carry a water. You will do fine.
Write down all of your achievements and goals and treat yourself for the work you have done.