You all made tears come to my eyes, thank you so much to take the time to befriend a fellow woman like yourself who needs you, sometimes i feel like we all sisters in this battle connected by the skin on our bodies and oblivious to the color, lovesnuff, honey777,slimmerkiwi,archmedes11, my THANK YOU is everylasting and FOREVER, your encouragement and your advice has been banked lol and i will start over and hopefully accomplish the goal i set out for, just knowing that we all share this battle together has enforced a new motivation for me to not just roar for myself but to scream for you 2 when we win every little victory.
Reading this was like reading my own thoughts when I get down. Please don't be so hard on yourself! Easier said than done, and nobody knows that better than me. All I can tell you is what has helped me:
- Restart you Spark journey, reset the numbers, emails, everything, and start at ground zero
- I have a skinny saboteur husband and in-laws that I'm currently living with *sigh*. If you can't get him to get rid of his stash, then you just have to suck it up and remind yourself of why you started! Find a cabinet that you have YOUR stash, and let that be the only one you go to. I have to wear blinders in the pantry and just look at my little area now
- Depression and anxiety are an ongoing struggle for me. For me, following those fast break goals like consistently getting enough water, fruits and veggies, and 10 min of walking a day go a long way in helping me deal with the depression.
- Reading positive and motivational books, blogs, and stories right here on SP help me a lot. Even if I'm not totally feeling up to being sunshiny, I fake it until I make it! That also has helped with the depression.
Hi Blind914, I'm Louise. "I want to be a helper to any and all who need some encouragement--together we can do this. We are now ready". Do these words sound familiar? Blind THEY ARE YOUR WORDS!! That alone is encouragement just for me. I had such a crappy day but I'm putting it behind me tonight and thinking that I'll start again tomorrow morning. If you read posts from others on this amazing site you'll see that everyone is at some point discouraged, yet there will always be someone who will give you words to help. I know I can't offer suggestions regarding depression only a physician can do that but I can offer to keep you in my prayers and if you ever need a "shoulder to cry on" I'll be that shoulder. I've gone through some really tough times over the last few years (my 49 year old husband passed away over a year ago), I've actually found myself so much stronger in areas that I needed to be because I live alone now. You WILL find the strength to find your own motivation, just take little steps and soon you'll be on your way. I believe in you. Message me anytime you want. Louise P.S. I looked at your Spark Page and you and your family are beautiful!
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BLIND914 I am sorry to hear that you are so down. Obviously Depression will have an impact on you, and you mention you are on meds for the Depression. Did a Psychiatrist prescribe this or was it your family Dr. IF it was the family Dr, it may be more beneficial for you to ask for a referral to a Psychiatrist. It is not uncommon for a family GP to diagnose depression, but not the actual type,and this can impact on the medications we are prescribe. The Psychiatrist is better placed with training to diagnose and treat.
IF it was a Psychiatrist who prescribed, then it may be time for you to have your meds reviewed. It is quite common that they start to become less effective over time, and other medication options need to be looked at.
Do you have therapy? If not, it may be helpful for you to ask your Dr for a referral to a Therapist to help you through this. Some Therapists specialize in different types of emotional baggage (relationship; eating; anxiety, etc.) so it would be best to have one who specializes in your issues.
I wonder if your weight-loss, and then regaining it is because you maybe started off boots and all, rather than applying the baby steps method. This is very common. With the baby steps method you change only one or two things, and allow your mind/body to get used to the changes before adding something more to the mix. Don't focus on the scales, but rather how your clothes fit, your skin/hair, how you sleep, and even your depression! Ensure that you are eating a really good balance of carbs/fats/protein, and getting plenty of fruit/veges, particularly dark leafy greens because they help considerably with depression. Good protein helps with depression (you are getting more tryptophan which helps with the mood) and will also help to keep you fuller for longer. Chewing on gum is a good way to reduce mindless snacking and therefore unnecessary calories. Getting out for regular walks also helps. You are getting the Vitamin D which helps lift the mood, you are getting exercise which also helps to lift the mood, and your are taking in sights/sounds/smells which can also lift the mood. Of course there is the obvious re the helping with your weight, too!
Have you had a talk with your husband about HIS stash of goodies and the effect that they have on you? Perhaps he may be able to reduce his, and also be more considerate and keep them somewhere that you don't go to - like his drawers??
The last thing I will mention is this - posting regularly on the message boards will help provide you with the support that you need.
I hope that you find at least some of this helpful! Take care, Kris
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Don't worry !! Everything really can and DOES workout in the end ! Even though you've been a Sparker for a long time, I'm going to recommend to you what I do to ALL new spark members.
Don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality. if the only healthy thing you were to do for yourself today was to drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction. Don't try to do everything at once or you will end up frustrated. Remember, you're trying to change habits learned over a life time. that's not going to happen overnight, a week, a month or even a year. Change takes time. thus the need to be patient with yourself and your body.
Start with some simple changes you CAN stick with. Example, if you're not used to eating 6-9 servings of fresh fruit and veggies, set a goal to eat 2-3 servings each day for one week. If you're not used to drinking 8 glasses of water, set a goal to drink 2-4 glasses each day for one week. If you're not used to regular exercise, set a goal to take a 30 minute walk each day for one week. Once you've achieved these goals, then you set new ones.
And that's how good health starts. It starts with a few simple changes. Because one small change will lead to another and another and another. before you know it, all those small changes add up into one huge accomplishment.
You can learn to love your body ! As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for the POSITIVE things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy.
Here i am again embarrassed to even post, i am so mad at me yet i know that i am in a state i have never encountered, i cant seem to stick to a plan of any sort, i exercise then i quit, i absolutely HATE MY BODY at this point. I am not trying to have a pity party of have been a sparker since 08,, i lost the weight then i will gain it right back, it was easy before now at 50 i cant seem to get a grip, yes i am heavily sedated with depression ok i get that but what in the world can i do to change this for me, my life is zilch, i am married to a skinny sabagtour, he likes to keep the house stocked with junk, and i just dont have the will power to stay motivated. I am so sick of this i see all of you looking so good because you have been working so hard and then i feel like i failed you all because i am suppose to be stronger than this, i think when i see 256 that looks like a lot lol lol, my body hurts so exercising is a challenge, i think all i have heard is you got a pretty face so i just ignored my image until now, the diets dont work, i cant seem to lose weight so i get discouraged, can someone plz tell me how i can do this . wat weight loss plan should i be on, i would so appreciate it so much.
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