I too can so relate to what you wrote and how you feel. As we age it gets tougher to lose the weight, and I for one get tired of having to say no to French fries, or candy, or seconds, or whatever. We live in a culture that is obsessed with food and I love it. Some types are more addictive than drugs, and the food manufacturers have this down to a science.
Last week I had just recommitted to weight loss following my recent check at the doctor's and wham! two days this week I went way over my calorie range. However there is no choice. I must lose some more weight. Setting smaller goals can help but for me now, just following the program is where I am concentrating.
Do I hate that when I was younger and thin I took it for granted that I could eat all I wanted? And didn't learn any behaviors that would help me now? Yes of course but this really is a battle of life or death - just a slow one. And that is why too much of the wrong food is dangerous. So I keep plugging along and know that there are many other Sparkers out there who share my struggles and will be there to support me.
I wish my schedule were different and I had more time to work out, and no knee problems which limit what I can do. But I choose to focus on what I did accomplish this week. I walked two days, and will work out tomorrow. I ate too much but am consuming healthier foods.
My game plan is to continue to focus on increasing the fresh fruit and most veggies, cut back my alcohol - which I have - and move more. I am taking some time off from work and will try some new recipes, and repeat some that worked for me before. Grilled eggplant, here I come!