Okay so I've started my workouts and calorie count again a month ago after "falling off the wagon" for almost 6 months.
I've really seen no budge in my weight at all. I have fluctuated between 2-5 pounds lost in the month and I have patience but this is nuts! I work out each night (weekends off) and watch my calories. What is going on? Its so bad now that I've managed to talk myself out of my workout tonight midway thru because I feel its not going to help and nothing is going to change.
I live in Europe and most of the people around me-are slim. Its hard being big in a skinny persons world. When I look at some people-I get so jealous and envious. Some people dont even have to work to be where they are! In fact, there's a woman I work with-she eats all the time and she has always been thin!!! She's also fairly healthy-no major risks ....so why??? tell me why???!
I have been large my entire life. Even at my smallest, I was still big because thats my frame and who I am-I have asked myself---maybe I just need to embrace the larger person I am and admit to myself that this is it....I just cant see the realistic transformation I would like to by my goal date....Im leaving for a Med Cruise in October and I wanted to be down atleast 20 pounds. Im starting to fall into a deep depression and feeling like nothing is worth the effort anymore!!!