First of all, welcome!!!!! You are in great company here, and you have nothing to feel stupid about. In fact, I think you need to pat yourself on the back and congratulate yourself for actually getting on this site, stating your goals and being determined to reach them! Weight loss is a LIFE LONG struggle for many of us. Look at me! I joined in December 2008, and was able to lose eighty pounds -- great, huh? Except that over the past year I gained thirty of those pounds back again. Oops. I decided I had a choice -- keep going in the wrong direction and gain the whole eighty back or get back on track and lose those thirty pounds again, and along the way -- try to learn better habits so I can keep them off this time. Does that make me stupid? Nope. It makes me human.
You are a beautiful person who deserves to feel happy about who she is. Never forget that, and remember, you are in the best company here. We can do this. I know it.