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5/23/13 11:55 P
Hi Brittany! I'm Erin. First of all, being overweight does not mean you're not beautiful! Your sister is not lying! I'll bet you are a great sister, daughter and friend! I know how you feel though, because I've been there. I've battled weight since childhood. I went through periods where I felt like I was disgusting and didn't deserve to be loved, but it wasn't true. I noticed I started feeling better about myself when I joined a gym. Exercise lifted my spirits and helped me take out anger and frustration. It eased my depression and anxiety. Laying off fast food, junk and soda quickly made me feel better physically and emotionally too. Surround yourself with supportive people and avoid people who put you down (although you're stuck with your little brother ;) boys will be boys!) There are men out there who will love you for you, not what you look like. My fiance is 6'0'' and 140lbs and he loved me unconditionally at my heaviest, 321lbs. Losing weight is not easy, but if you really want it, you have to work hard, and you will truly be amazed when you start seeing results. Add me as a friend if you like! Good luck on your journey!
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5/23/13 11:33 P
I can certainly relate. I easily tipped three bills for a good chunk of my life, but carried it well, so no one really knew, but I did. I have mental hurdles to clear on a daily basis, too. While don't have formal training like you do, I have all the empathy in the world.
A few things. Family's great, but in the end, it's your life. You worry about you. Your siblings are who they are, but this is YOUR life to live. In terms of relationships, let's put that to the side. Right now, you need to concentrate on you. Relationships cultivate primarily from confidence as confidence gives way to interest in actually interacting with other people, something I've had difficulty with here and there.
You're not a lost cause, you're not a bad person and you're most certainly not beyond help. You're doing everything to point yourself in a positive direction and some people can't even do that. The next step is...well, to take the next step forward and know that it doesn't matter what other people think. It's what you think. You get to be who you want to be.
If others don't like it? Doesn't really matter. They're not worth the investment of your time.
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5/23/13 11:20 P
Hello, my name is Brittany...
Last week when I had to go to the doctor I stepped on the scale and it read 203 pounds.. It's the heaviest I've ever been. I've never been skinny. I've never been this big though. I hate myself so much. I'm 20 years old. I am in college, I study Psychology. I'm going to be a therapist one day soon, and I can't even help myself. I have 3 siblings, all younger. One of my brothers is going into the Marines. He's built, attractive, smart, funny. Everything I wish I could be. Then there is my little sister. She's only 15 but and since she hit 10 she's been obsessed with how people see her.. She tries to make me feel like I'm pretty and not fat, but I know she's only telling lies. Then is my youngest brother.. Lately he has been making jokes about my weight. I try to shrug it off when he says things but I know I'm gross. It's not fair for them to have a big sister that can't even take care of herself. They deserve a role model. I never have healthy relationships. I put so much effort into making people happy I forget about who I am and what I need. I cry all the time. I'm not pretty, I'm not thin, I'm not wanted. Sometimes I'd rather just disappear so no one has to see my disgusting body anymore.
I'm here for help. I want to be happy. I've never actually been happy before. I think I deserve it by now.. please, someone say they can relate..
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