Thanks Shelly. This person specifically asked for a face-to-face conversation in the future (she wants a week or so). I do plan on preparing for that conversation, and hopefully I can position it along the way I did below.
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8 1/11/11 9:29 A
Write this person a letter. Write it exactly how you wrote this, you can see from your words that you are very sorry for what you did. Explain what's going on in your head but don't use it as an excuse for what you said. This way she may read it and actually listen to your apology. She may be angry and can't deal with seeing or hearing you in person at the moment. We all make mistakes, don't be too hard on yourself xx good luck
Thanks - I have considered seeing a therapist. In the meantime, however, I feel like this has led to me doing and saying such horrible things that I've severely damaged relationships. I don't know how to fix them. I don't know how to deal with the regret and remorse for it.
1/10/11 4:05 P
Have you discussed depression with your doctor? I visited my doctor last year and it was the best decision ever. I was suffering some mood issues after losing my mom and then two months later having a baby.
Over the last few months, I have been going through some hard times and haven't felt my usual happy self. I find myself resenting others and wishing I could be as happy as them. I wish I had gotten control over that situation earlier, but instead I let it spiral out of control and said some mean and unfair things to someone very close to me on a day that was supposed to be very special for her. In the process, I dragged other people into it who were very close to me. I realized it all too late and she won't accept my apology. This could affect our relationship forever.
I can't believe it happened. I feel sick and miserable. I woul give anything to go back and start over. I can't live with this guilt and regret. I hate that I did it and remorseful doesn't describe how I feel. I don't know how to move on. In the meantime I can barely eat, sleep, and function, much less work out. Any advice would be helpful. Thank you and God bless.
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