Friends and motivators are great, but not to always lean on. One needs their own strength to really be able to attain their goals. When one relies or needs others to succeed, they are destined to fail since it is rare that all their friends will always be there for them. It is also too easy to blame others for their failures when others are their support group. Sadly, you have already blamed your husband for some of your weaknesses. Sorry, that is NOT the way to succeed.
If you show your family and friends YOUR strength and commitment, they will follow or at least respect what you are striving for. Stay strong, don't blame others for your weaknesses, don't depend on others, and Keep the faith.
That being said, this site is full of caring people that will do their best to help you succeed, especially if they see you are serious and determined.