I don't have much more to add then what the others have already said. Just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone!
If the weather isn't good where you are. Do you have an indoor play area (tunnels or bounce houses) for your daughter to play in? I know I have taken my nephews to a tunnel place and have gone in the tunnels with them. It was fun and even a good work out for me.
Hope that may help!
Fitness Minutes: (222,620)
21,780 2/15/13 1:25 P
We all have days when we get a bit depressed. I felt the same way Wednesday. had a bad day too. Some days, it's tough to stay positive when it feels like the world is collapsing around you. But, things do get better. Why don't you take your daughter to the park ? push her in the swing for a while if the weather is nice. If the weather isn't so nice, take her to the mall and go window shopping.
One thing I've learned about my own days when I feel depressed is this, "Get out of the house". Go for a walk. Go to the grocery store. Go to the gym. Staying at home just makes a person feel worse. Thus the reason to get out of the house so that you don't feel trapped.
I am sorry you're depressed today, but it is okay and normal. I feel for you and dealing with your emotions is as important as working out and pushing it hard. I cannot imagine what you are going through and can only read your message but I wish I could be there to offer you support and lend an ear. I wouldn't say that you feeling the way you do is not fair to your daughter, you dealing with ovarian cancer is not fair to either of you. I hope you have someone to talk to because dealing with this alone when you are afraid is not good for your wellbeing and if you need a person to write to feel free to pm me.
Just a thought - relaxation and meditation might be a place to start to feel more centered and help bring down your anxiety level.
Sending you a hug, as I'm not sure how else I can help. Maybe you can work out today, but not push it so hard. So sorry you are having to deal with cancer (I'm almost a 15-year survivor, and I know that can really play havoc on your emotions, etc.) What can you do fun with your daughter today, to take the focus off the bad. I, of course, am no professional - but wanted to send some better energy your way. Just try to put your focus on something else. Wishing you the best!
Fitness Minutes: (15,887)
273 2/15/13 10:38 A
Feeling depressed today but have to admit that I am seeing a trend these days...I should be sitting here enjoying my morning with my daughter. She is nearly three but all I want to do is go back to bed or start crying. I physically exhausted,been working out really hard lately...but realizing that I have bee used g it as a excuse to avoid feelings of loneliness and fear and anger with my health ( ovarian cancer).....I love the endorphin rush I get when I am pushing myself hard, only time I feel calm in my skin....I am paralyzed with fear right now, I don't want to move from my couch.....because I feel like if I do something just aweful will happen....I hate,days like this...it isn't fair to my daughter
SparkPeople, SparkCoach, SparkPages, SparkPoints, SparkDiet, SparkAmerica, SparkRecipes, DailySpark, and other marks are trademarks of SparkPeople, Inc. All Rights Reserved.
SPARKPEOPLE is a registered trademark of SparkPeople, Inc. in the United States, European Union, Canada, and Australia. All rights reserved.