There isn't a person on SP that can't relate to what you feel, Curvy. But for me...it's that very fear that keeps me motivated. I'm in the 50 plus pile and at a point in my life where, if I fall back, it will be all the harder to get back on the weight loss wagon.
Over one year ago, I would never have done the 5k that I did in May...or the one in June. I would not have worn that swim suit in public, I would not have done a Polar Plunge. And there many more things I want to do in 2013 that I would not have been able to do because I would have been huffing and puffing...or just sitting on the sideline watching instead of doing.
I love SP and my SP buddies because they keep me motivated with their accomplishments. SP is more than a "diet". It's friends, motivation, helping hands, encouragement, support, and shoulders to lean on.