so sorry for your loss, that is hard, emotional eating is hard at the best of times. I struggle with this all the time. THey say to journal, whatever comes to mind, just write it. For some reason, writing, helps a lot. You will go through times of grieving. Trying to push your thoughts away, doesn't work, you just have to grieve, its all a process. Eating, is just pushing your thoughts away, cuz we don't want to think about it, but then, we eat, and then it sets up the cycle of guilt pain shame. Just set one easy goal, can be anything. You are going to be really stressed, right now. so just 1. maybe even to just go sit in a bubble bath, to just relax. something, i just learned a couple of days ago. Their goal was to eat dessert just one day a week, can be any day you choose. They had a list of things, you can do, to achieve it, which all of them I have heard. But, one, I haven't was to , put on your refrigerator a piece of paper. When you have a craving, of something you don't want to eat. Then put iton the piece of paper, tell yourself, I can have this on the day I CHOOSE to eat it, not when your brain tells me to eat it. They say, after you write it down, knowing, that you can eat it when you are in control, most of the time, you don't want it. Anyways, I hope things pick up for you, take one day or even if thats too much, work one minute at a time.
I will say a prayer for you