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While we can offer support to help you with healthy habits, it would definitely be a good idea to speak in person with a health professional to help you work through what you are going through and have gone through. It's great that you want to get help and that you are here! There is plenty of support here, but we aren't able to give you what you need to stop the cycle of disordered eating. So I would ask that you take some time to really consider speaking with a health professional that specializes in eating disorders to help you work through this. I know it is hard, but honestly, it is the next best thing for you to do. And of course, keep coming back here for continued support as well.
Here is an article with some information on getting help for disordered eating: www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutrition_art
. Also, I found this SparkTeam that I think you may find helpful in your recovery: www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_individ
I hope that you continue to post and use the site for support, but that you also get that in-person, professional help that is also needed.