Hello, I am sorry you are having so much trouble finding the dress. Have you tried calling Macy's in New York City or Chicago to see if they have the dress or could send it to a retail store near you to try it on? If they have it in NYC and can't send it to a location near you perhaps you could make a trip to NYC. Regardless, whether it be that dress or not I am sure you will find the perfect one for you and you will look spectacular on your special day!!!